Save Me // S.W

Chapter 14

"All because of you!" He yells.

"I'm sorry!" I cry.

"I hate you . Your worthless. Why didn't you die ?" He yells.

"I'm truly sorry." I cry.

"You should of died and not him." He yells and slaps me.

I lay there crying.

I wake up and take deep breaths.
"Breathe." I tell myself.

I just find myself crying harder then usual.

I get up and walk to Shawn's room.

He's soundly asleep. I sit down on his bed. My cries are getting uncontrollable. I try holding it in.
My body is shaking hardly. I feel as the room is getting smaller.

I guess Shawn hears me. He sits up.

"Erin?"

I can't even talk.

"What's wrong sweetheart?" He says wrapping his arms around me.

"I'm sorry." I say in a whisper.

"About what?" He says laying us down.

"I'm sorry." Is all I manage to say.

It's hard. I can't stop crying. I can't breathe right. Everything is getting smaller. I start to panic.

"Shit , your having a panic attack Erin." Shawn says getting worried.

"Look Erin listen to my voice."

This point my mind is somewhere else.

"It's all going to be okay."

Shawn comes rubbing my thigh and holding me close.

"Breathe. Breathe." He says.

"Inhale. Exhale." He says and I do as he says.

I start to clam down a bit. He lays down with me and holds me close.

I fall to sleep. Shawn's arms never unwrapping.

I wake up in Shawn's arms. I look around it's 6:45.

I get up and walk to my room.

I put on sweats , oversized t-shirt , messy bun , my vans.

I walk to the restroom. My eyes just look horrible.

"Erin how are you feeling?" Shawn comes in.

"In doing perfectly fine." I fake smile.

"I hate that you lie to me." He says stepping closer to me. I back away.

He steps closer and I step back. My back hits the wall. Fuck.

"Sorry."

"It's fine Erin." He says and placing his hand on my cheek.

"Okay."

"I'm not going to kiss you. I just wanted to hug you. You seemed all creeped out." He burst into laughter.

"You asshole!" I laugh and push him.

"Let's get going."

"I'm walking."

"As always."

I start walking and my phone starts ringing.

"Hello."

"Hey Erin , today is the day." Jack says.

Today is the day. Thanks for reminding me Jack. Then again that's probably why I had a panic attack.