Save Me // S.W

Chapter 29

{1 week later}

1 week without his smirk. 1 fucking week without his presence. I haven't left my room. I'm just numbed once again. I'm dead inside and my lungs are giving out but some how I'm still breathing but I wish I wasn't. My nightmares have been coming back. Everything is just really hard.

"Erin." I hear Jack's voice as he walks in.

"Jack." I whisper. He sits next to me and hugs me.

"Erin your eyes. They so baggy from the bottom." He says.

"I know . I'm a mess." I fake laugh.

"Someone's here to see you." He says.

"Who?"

"Sam."

What the fuck is Sam doing here?

"Don't let him in. Not right now or ever."

"Your going to have to face him sooner or later."

"I choose later." I say harshly.

"I don't care. He's coming in. I will be outside of you need me." He hugs me but I don't hug back. He just sighs and walks out.

Moments later Sam walks in. He looks like a mess as well.

"Erin." He says. He sits at the edge of the bed. He tried grabbing my hand but I harshly diss him and I could see the hurt in his eyes.

"I'm sorry."

I nod.

"Say something." He begs.

"What do you want me to say? That I forgive you for fucking someone else? If you thought that you are surely stupid." I spit.

"No. I just needed to hear your voice."

"Well now you heard it." I say harshly.

"Erin. Please. I miss you so much."

"Sam. You cut me so deep that you hit my heart and now all I can do is try to replicate that feeling but somehow my knife doesn't hurt the way the empty space in my bed does." I wipe the couple tears that were falling.

"I wasn't able to save you like you asked me to." He sniffles. He is crying?

"You saved me and then crushed me again and way worse." I bit my lip.

"I'm sorry baby. Let me make it up to you. Just give me a chance." He pleads.

"I don't know if I could trust you again. My trust is thin."

"Please. I'm so in love with you. I'm a huge mess without you. I need you." He tries grabbing my hand again but I move it away.

"Please I will do anything . Okay ? I slept with Sophie because I was scared that I was to deep. I thought sleeping with someone else will show that I'm not in way to deep but the whole time I was thinking of you. I was thinking about your teasing. The way your soft pink lips feel on mine." He adds.

He just said what I have been wanting him to say. I just don't know.

Before I knew what I was doing I grabbed his hand. His eyes widen and smiled.

"Not off the hook yet Samuel." I wink.

He leans up and kisses my forehead. "I love you." He whispers into my ear.

I nod. "Stay the night? I can't last one more day without you. My nightmares have been getting worse."

"Of course baby."