Rigby O'connell |BE

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It's evening.
Sophia left 4 hours ago.
all i did was cry and sleep.
Billie is at rose's house.
I can't call mom because they are in the airplane at the moment.
She is coming home tomorrow.

Tour is starting in a week.
I love tour! But at the moment I'm really depressed.
I cannot be happy for one moment.
Since the incident with Jordan happened i am a very different person.
I hate it and i hate him.

I got a snapchat from Billie.

Its a picture.
Her head is red.
Like a tomato.
she is in bed.
Red led lights and i can see Rose laying on her chest.

"How are you?"
I made a picture of my ceiling.
And i wrote.
"Fine, have fun with Rose lmao."
Ofcourse i know what they are doing.
I'm almost 15 i know that shit.

I closed my phone and tried to sleep.
I got a text from Finneas.
"We made your fav spaghetti! Would you come down stairs and try to eat?"
Finneas is really caring and i love him.
I love how he said "try"

I walked down the stairs and said hello.
They really made my favorite.
Spaghetti with pesto and vegan cheese.

But I wasn't hungry.
The thought of food made me sick.

I sat down and they gave me my food.
"Rigby it's okay if you don't finish it! I'm already proud when you eat a bit!" Claudia said
I love Claudia so much.

I ate a bit.
I'm glad i did.
And I'm proud of myself.

"Thank you so much for the food guys but is it okay if i stop?" I asked.
They nodded yes because they were eating.
I drank some water and grabbed my phone.
I checked my snap and i got a new snap from Billie.

"Uhm thanks ig..." I started laughing.
"Whats funny?" Finneas asked.
I explained what happened earlier and he started laughing too.

"Should we watch a movie tonight?" Claudia asked.
I wasn't feeling good to be honest.
But I didn't want to be the party pooper.
"Yes sure" Finneas said.
"I'm in" i could always sleep on the couch or something..

"I'm gonna change in my joggers" i said.
I ran upstairs changed my clothes and ran back downstairs.

"Were watching the fallout" claudia said.
I loveee the fallout!
While we were watching i fell a sleep on Finneas's shoulder.

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Before i knew it it was morning.
Claudia woke me up by laying next to me and hiving me a hug.
"Goodmorning Rigby"
"Its so early" i grounded.
"We have to pick up your parent's"
That's right they are back in la!
"Mhm can i just wear joggers?" I asked.

"Wear whatever you want"
I got out of bed grabbed some jogging pants and changed into them, i was still wearing the same hoodie.

We walked down the stairs and i asked Claudia if i could wear one of her hoodies.
She tossed me one and i changed into them.

Finneas was drinking coffee and billie was laying on the couch watching the office.
"Morning" i said.
"Good morning rigss" Finneas said.
"Billie we got to go" Claudia said.
"Rose is still on the toilet so wait"
While she said that Rose was already in the same room!

"Hey Rigby how are you?" She asked.
I replied by saying mhm.
I was to tired.

"Okay girlies we have to go" Finneas said.
I was really excited to see mom and dad again.
I really missed them.

We were in the car.
Rose's head was laying on Billie's chest. I was staring out of the window, Finneas was driving and Claudia was holding his hand.

"Rigby?" Billie said.
"Yes?"
" how are you?" She asked.
"I'm - " i tried to speak but she interrupted me by saying
"Real answer no bullshit good or shit"
"I've been better" i said.

"I love you" she said.
She is cute.

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We arrived.
I got out of the car and i grabbed Finneas's hand.
I hate going out in public.
I hate paparazzi i hate everything about it.
There weren't much paparazzi luckily.

We walked thru the airport and got some starbucks.
Tbh i needed that shit.
I drank my Starbucks and we walked to the place where mom and dad arrived. We were fucking early.
So i was scrolling thru my phone a bit but i was tired so i closed my eyes and layed my head against Billies shoulder.
She was playing with my hair and i fell asleep.

I woke up because a fan was asking for a picture. So she took it i was still "sleeping" so the picture was prob very akward but i don't care.

"Wake up mom and dad are almost here." Billie said.
I woke up and everything was so bright.
But yes mom and dad were almost here.
I saw them walking.

I was filled with happiness.
They were almost here.
I couldn't wait to hug them.

The door opened and mom walked out first.
I ran into her and gave her the biggest hug.
"Oh hello rigby"
"Mooommmmm i missed you so much"
I was feeling good and weirdly i was feeling some sort of relief .
Dad was standing behind her.
I stopped hugging mom and i immediately hugged dad.

I really missed them.
We got out of the airport and drove back home.

Rose and Billie were making dinner for everyone.
They were having so much fun.

"Rigby how are you?" Mom asked.
I didn't know what to answer to that.
It's a hard question when you feel bad.
"Okay I guess" is what i said.
She looked concerned and asked me about my ed.
How did she know.

I immediately walked to Billie.
"Did you tell mom?" I said.
She looked very confused.
"What?" She asked.
"Did you tell mom about my fucking eating disorder?"
Her face turned white and no words came out of her mouth.

"You did not!" I said as I stormed of.
I ran to my room and started crying.
I could hear someone else crying too.
It wasn't mom nor dad.
And Claudia and Finneas were doing groceries.
I never heard rose cry but it sounded more like it was Billie.

Why is she crying?
She started this shit.

Someone was knocking at my door.
"Rigby? Can i come in?" It was mom.
"Yes" i said thru my tears.

She sat on my bed and said. "Billie said it with good intentions rigby, she wasn't trying to make you feel bad she only wants to help you."
I know but it's wrong.
Well i think its wrong.
"You don't have to be mad at her." She said.

Well i was, i was fucking mad.
"But why? Why did she tell you" i asked mom.
Someone appeared at the doorway.
"Because i was worried" Billie said.

I pushed my face in my pillow and started crying so hard.
"Mom leave please" Billie said.
I wanted them both to leave.

Mom left and Billie layed next to me.
"I'm sorry i told mom but i had to" she said.
"BUT WHY BILLIE WHY" I screamed.
She was crying too.
"Because i love you Rigby and I don't want to lose you"
I placed my head in her chest.

"I'm sorry i really am" she said.
"It's okay i just hate everything i hate everything!" I said.
Because i did.
At the moment i hated everything.
I hated the way i looked the way i talk and the way i always get mad for the smallest shit.

"Thats okay but you can do it"
I wasn't so sure about that.
"Is it okay if i go back and help rose?" She asked.
I totally forgot she was here too.
"Yes and tell her that I'm sorry"
She left and i fell asleep.