She Is MINE ! 🌷(THREE)

I want to be better

Wednesday May 15 th 2018
The DELUCA Bishop household!

19h46
**Carina finally made it home and she was so exhausted that she stayed in her car for a few more minutes then she usually does! She didn't know why but she couldn't get herself to stop crying **

{{ Come on Carina, get yourself together!! Your beautiful children are all happy and healthy.. stop guilting yourself it's not your fault}}

19h49
**Carina entered the house **
Hiiii everyone!!! Ohhhhh how I missed you all!
Maya: hiiii my love ** she gave her wife a kiss and Carina didn't want to let go**
Maya: how was your day today?

Scarlett : No Violet stop that's miiiiiinnne !
Violet: nuhhh uhhhh! It's not ! It's minnnne ughhh mommy mommy! Scarlett is stealing my—- ** she realized that her momma was home **
Carina: well ughh ! It was good! I uhh ** she got interrupted by her precious little five years old twins, Violet and Scarlett both were sooooo happpy their momma was home that they immediately stopped fighting **
Carina: ohhhhh hiiiii ! What was all this fighting about huh?
Scarlett : nothing....
Violet: well we both wanted the same toy momma!
Carina: ohhhh I see !
Go play with your siblings mommy and I are going to talk for a little bit!
**Chloe and Lorenzo were doing their homework **
Hi momma!!!
Carina: hiiii kiddos!
** she kisses her son and daughter on their forehead and let them finish their homework and went in the living room and sat down on the couch **

Maya: okay babe, tell me what's going on?
Carina: okay so Victoria had her triplets today! All three of them are absolutely perfect!
Maya: okay, yea I forgot that she was — ** maya didn't know how to handle that conversation but she knew it was a delicate one but one that had to be had! Because Carina did carry triplets when she got pregnant with her twins! Only Violet and Scarlett survived obviously **

Carina: and it made me think about that could have been us babe, trying to figure out how to get them all on the same schedule, or how we were going to feed THREE OF THEM at once, those kind of questions!!
And I know I'm annoying and always emotional but pregnancy and going through the process of delivering children literally messes you up and everything in your brain is unbalanced... but I —- I know that there's a reason for everything, and to why God decided to take one up in Heaven with him so early without us getting to know that baby... maybe it was because it didn't grow properly like Violet and Scarlett did, and I am forever thankful and grateful for our twins ! They truly are a blessing! I sometimes wonder what our lives would have been like with triplets! And today...
Maya: it DIDNT really help you out huh? Delivering Victoria's triplets huh?
Carina: nooooo ** she sobbed and sobbed and rested her head down on her wife's shoulders **
Maya: shhhhhh it's okay..... and don't feel like you can't express your emotions and feelings... babe, you are always welcome to do that.... Don't ever hold them in because you're going to feel " annoying"
Carina: okay ... thank you for understanding!'
Maya: No worries my love, why don't you come help me out with the three youngest kids with bath time? And then it'll be my turn to take care of you like you have been doing so for the past few years now! It's my turn !!

19h20

**Carina got up and she cracked her neck and shoulders **
Okay thank you!
Guys , who wants a bubble bath?
Violet, Scarlett and Alessandro: ohhhh meeeeeeeeeeeee !!
**Carina and Maya both chuckles **
Carina: alright well let's gooooo !!!

** Seeing her three youngest children being overly excited about the fact that SHE WAS GOING TO GIVE THEM A BATH really melted her heart and she instantly felt better. **

Scarlett: splish splash I'm taking a bath ** she said singsongy and she splashed water everywhere **
Carina: nooooo splashing Scarlett ! What do we always say about splashing?
Scarlett : No splashing in the bath...
Carina: that's right, where are we allowed to splash?
Violet: in the pool momma!!
Carina: yes that's right!
Scarlett : I'm sorry momma! I got too excited that you were going to give us a bath tonight!
Carina: it's okay! Now lift your head up violet , momma is going to wash your hair mi amore!
Violet: okay momma!
** she lifted her head up and closed her eyes **
Violet: are we almost done momma? My eyes are burning?
** Carina checked to see if shampoo or conditioner ended up in her eyes, it didn't! **
Almost done baby!
Mayyyyaaaaaa ! Can you please help me with Alessandro and Scarlett they are both done!
Maya: Yess of course my love ! Come on Alessandro! Let's go put your pyjamas on !
** she took her three years old son and brought him out of the bathtub and into his room , Tristan came upstairs to offer his help!**
Carina: Okay Violet we are all done
Tristan: do you need any help momma!
I can untangle their hair !
Carina: ohhh that would be fantastic! Thank youuu!
Violet: ouhhhh can Tristian do my hair please please!
Look at my pyjamas Tristan!!
Tristan: of course I can do your hair, and you have a beautiful pyjamas! What's on your pyjamas?
Violet: the little mermaid!! Ariel and Sebastian and Flounder da fishy!
Tristan: yesss that's right!