She Is MINE ! 🌷(THREE)

Momma, give me a sign

11h20 am
Tuesday January 20 th 2019
Part two

Carina: Maya honey ?
Maya: yea baby what's up? What can I do for you my absolute devoted momma and wife ?
**Carina sat down on the couch hooked up to the baby monitor and she is looking at her hands which she is rubbing together nervously **

Carina: I don't know why but I don't think it's a good idea for me to have another baby! I mean it's extremely DANGEROUS FOR ME AND THE BABY.. why can't I be just fucking grateful for the beautiful kids we have together... ? Why do I always want MORE? I don't want to put myself in danger for my satisfaction of going through the newborn stages again... and I know you have been keeping your mouth shut regarding this crazy idea of a sixth pregnancy and birth.... Im sorry!!!
Maya: hey hey hey, everything is okay... I won't lie to you.. I was a bit shocked when you said you wanted to go through another pregnancy... all over again.. and we are older and we already have 5 children and 2 bonus kids... with a total of seven !
Carina: yeah I know... I just wished we could have an even number so we could do things with the four oldest or the four youngest kids...
Maya: I totally understand that... but I don't want you to put yourself in a risky and dangerous situation just for us to have eight! We can definitely adopt another one so we can both be here and safe , babe, I really really don't want to lose you or the baby when you go into labour with this one... you are definitely more high risk and it's totally normal babe, because we are not thirty years old anymore..
Carina: okay... what do we do now ?
I'm thirteen weeks pregnant baby...
Maya: yea I know...
I don't know what to do... I mean I say we keep going with this one... I mean it did stick on the first try .. and just have you do the strict minimum for the rest of your pregnancy....
Carina: right? It's a tough decision because it's not like we don't know .... I mean we know it's there we can hear the little heart beating and everything!! Ughhhhh ! This is stressing me out!
** she curled up in a fetal position on the couch with her head down on her lap **
Maya: okay..... deep breath's babe, do you want a massage? Or a warm bath?
Carina: yes to both of your questions but I just wished I could have a sign from above like from my mom letting me know that everything is going to be fine and that this little blob has a purpose for our family and there's a reason why it stuck on the first try .... Please don't think that I am not grateful or thankful for the perfect children we are blessed with...
Maya: babe, see , I can never think such a thing towards you because that's just who you are... kids are drawn to you, you are calm and patient with them and it comes naturally to you... I will NEVER THINK THAT you are ungrateful or un thankful regarding our precious children.. I just wish I would have been on board the "let's have children"  train much sooner...
Carina; thank you Bambina.. heyyyy ... it's okay... you did come around the idea and just for that.. I'll be forever grateful to you that you made me a momma ! I fucking love you so much...
Maya; okay .. watching you being so involved with our children stories and things they like to do ... amazes me , I'm happy I changed my mind!!
Carina and Maya: thank you Pru !

**Maya and Carina both kissed **

Maya: you can definitely ask your momma to guide you through this...
Carina: hrmmmm kaaaaaayyyy !
Momma, if you can here me , please send me a sign from above that everything is going to be fine and I will make it out with this six baby... who's technically our eighth baby... am I OVERDOING IT ? why am I always looking for another validation... I definitely feel like our family isn't complete ... until this one comes along! Anyhow I'm going to keep my eyes out for a sign from you! I miss you everyday momma!!

Maya: you finish with the monitor session and I'll draw you a nice warm bath and then I'll massage your back and— your whole body...
Carina: okay thank you Bambina..