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Avalon

I was a little sad Matt was going to LA, but my excitement for him out ruled that, I was so proud of him, him and the boys deserve all the success they've received and I'm so happy they're going somewhere with their dream. I had told Matt I was going to see my doctor tomorrow because I needed to talked to her about some things, I know for sure I have undiagnosed ADHD, but I also need therapist recommendations because I think I've developed borderline personality disorder. Mary Lou insisted that I stayed for dinner before I went home, so that's what I did. I was sitting at the dinner table and everything was running through my mind, I was thinking about everything, when I couldn't sleep last night I was reading up about bpd, reading through the symptoms I related to almost all of them. 

"Ava, Honey, are you okay?" Mary Lou's words broke my thoughts.

"Oh, yeah, yeah I'm fine, sorry." I gave her a small smile.

"Alright," She softly spoke and returned to her conversation with Nick.

I felt Matt's hand place lightly on my knee, and it helped me calm down. After we were done eating I helped clean up the kitchen, and then Matt took me home. When we arrived at my apartment complex he walked me up to my door.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yeah I'm alright, I just need, answers." I sighed.

"You'll get them soon, I promise." He kissed my forehead.

"I love you Matt," I looked into his eyes.

"I love you too, Ava." He gave me and kiss and we said our goodbyes.

I unlocked my apartment door and walked in and set my stuff on my kitchen counter. I went to get a water from my fridge and then went to my laptop in the living room. I turned on background noise and opened the laptop. I went down a three hour hole of research about ADHD and BPD, so when that therapy appointment was scheduled. I wasn't going to go in blind. I fell asleep on the couch by accident and woke up around 8:00 am. I put in my absence for school since I had a doctors appointment and then went to go get ready. After I got dressed I went to make a quick breakfast and brush my teeth, then went down to my car and drove to my doctors office. I started to get anxious, I sat in the waiting room, fiddling with my thumbs then pulled my phone out. I had a text from Matt telling me everything was going to be okay, so I took a deep breath and then my name was called.

"Hi hon, here step on this scale for me," The nurse was super nice.

When we went into the room she checked my vitals and then told me the doctor would be in momentarily, she didn't keep me waiting long at all.

"Hi Avalon! What brings you in today?" She came in still rubbing hand sanitizer in.

"Hi, so uh, I wanted to know what I had to do to get tested for ADHD and if I needed to go to a therapist for somethings..." I breathed.

"Oh, well, what things are we talking about?" She asked.

"Borderline personality disorder? I know that you had diagnosed me with both chemical imbalanced anxiety and depression, but I didn't know if BPD was a therapist type of thing."

"I see you have papers, looks like you did your research," She gave me a gentle laugh, "I am allowed to diagnose you, I'm gonna need to ask you some questions, kind of like what happened with the other diagnoses, and I can already tell, you my dear, have ADHD."

"I figured," I gave her a laugh, "I have a whole bunch of notes I took last night while I was researching, here you go." I handed her the papers I had in my hand.

"I've always admired how prepared you are when you come in here," She smiled looking over the papers.

"Well, I don't have much to do living on my own now."

"Yes I saw your address changed, I'm happy you got out." She gave me a smile.

"So am I," I grinned.

"Well dear, looking through all of these, maybe I don't have to do the questionnaire, it's giving me everything I need." She sounded a little shocked.

"Well," I was kind of quiet now, I was a little nervous.

"This is what we're going to do, here is a physiatrists number, I'll send her everything about you, with your diagnoses, because you know how I am with medicating, I don't want to jump to that just yet, but I want you to start seeing her for bpd, and maybe sprinkle some anxiety and depression help in there too," She gave me a reassuring smile.

"Oh perfect," My face fell, I hated it, something else wrong with me.

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Hi guys!!! So I hope you guys liked the chapter, don't worry no more surprise things for Avalon mental health wise, I just feel like this would be great for her character development, you'll see why in later chapters, and with someone who has ADHD, Anxiety, Depression, and BPD I wanted to give her something that I do have experience with so writing would be a little smoother:) I really hope everyone enjoyed!

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