Lily's Protector - Wolves MC

Chapter 17

Lily

It's crazy how the mind works and what can trigger it, to make you remember something. I don't know why I didn't remember that part of being in the abandoned gas station parking lot. I remembered the guys, I remembered talking to Nitro in the truck afterwards, but it's as if my mind completely blocked out that one part. I don't know why I felt the need to scream at the stars, except that I knew the men I killed would never see them again. That I took that from them. It made me angry and sad for them, even though the motherfuckers were trying to kill us.

I have now met all of the men that were there with Nitro to help me that night and I couldn't be more grateful to them. Granted, they all look like they would rip a man's head off if he looked at him the wrong way, but to me, they seem kind, understanding and surprisingly chivalrous.

I'm unsure of the last time I had a man stand in my presence, like they did. It felt amazing, like I was someone worth showing respect to. Most men would have stayed seated and acted as if I were bothering them. These men were attentive and appreciative. Nothing like what I had expected.

When I froze, recalling the memory from the parking lot, Nitro knew exactly what I was feeling and thinking. I'm sure he's killed before, and I'm sure he's probably seen people react worse than I did. For him to know exactly what I needed, and for him to provide that for me, has made me feel even more protected and safe with him.

He has been understanding, supportive, caring and thoughtful. He has been my rock holding me up when I feel I can't move. Looking into Nitro's eyes as he speaks with Spike and Texas, I can't shake this feeling like we're connected, or like something is drawing us to each other. Fuck, this has to be the situation we're in that's making me feel this way. Right?

Lost in my thoughts, I hear Nitro say his goodbyes to the group to excuse us and I give a slight wave trying not to be rude or seem crazy. He leads me over to a booth that Taz settled in while we were talking to the other guys.

"You alright, Little Bit?" Taz asks, pulling on his beard looking at me concerned with his other hand laying on the table in front of him. I nod at Taz as Nitro pulls me close to him.

"Are you okay, Little One?" Nitro looks down into my eyes, worried.

"I'm okay." I assure him. "Just got lost in my thoughts. I'm sorry."

"There's nothing for you to be sorry for, Little One. I need to get the prospects working on some supplies for us. Do you want to go with me or stay here and visit with Pops?" he asks, glancing at Taz behind us, but I can tell he doesn't want to leave me.

"Where will you be?" I ask him worried, trying not to panic. I've known Taz my entire life, but I only feel safe with Nitro right now. It has to be the situation. He's my protector, and I'm comfortable with him being the one to protect me.

"In the back. Right through those doors. Shouldn't take me long." He assures me, pointing towards the door behind the bar while he keeps his eyes on mine.

"Ok, I'll stay here with Taz." I don't want to take him from what he needs to do, and I don't want to seem like the crazy, pathetic clingy girl. Besides, I'm comfortable with Taz. I've known him longer than Nitro. There's just something about Nitro that instantly puts me at ease.

"Ok, Little One." Nitro eyes me and I can tell he wants to say no to my decision, but he allows it. I know it has something to do with our argument yesterday, and I find it sweet.

"Pops I'll be right back. You keep an eye on her, don't leave her alone." Nitro says sternly to Taz as he glares at him. Nitro releases my hand, and I slide into the booth across from Taz as he and Nitro stare each other. It's weird seeing Taz with his son, and for Nitro to be that son.