I feel so dump.
I feel like I've been trapped somehow.
I feel like, no matter what I do and no matter how hard I try, nothing is right.
Like that one piece of clothing you bought. In the store it looked great, on you it looked great.
But when you get home you relize that you can't wear it because there is absolutly no chance that you would ware it on a regular basis. And then you start making up excuses, excuses for when you can wear this piece of clothing.
You wait for that one time where you can wear that one outfit the piece goes with, just to never wear it again after.
And that feeling is the same feeling I have right now.
I don't know maybe you don't even relate to what I'm saying.
Maybe you just read half of that stuff and thought to yourself, what the hell is wrong with them?
And yes well, I ask myself that too sometimes.
And then I start making up excuses, reasons for why I act this stupid and why I choose to wright this stuff down instead of actually talking about it.
But anyway, I guess that's just how it is sometimes.
Confusing, lonely and so fucking ecxausting that you feel like you can't breath anymore.
The real Problem with this feeling is just, I have no ideal how to get rid of it. I don't know how to make me feel different, better or just nothing at all.
I don't know it.
I just don't.
And although I already said this a hundred times and at some point it's just really anoying, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for beeing me.
And the fact that I mean that a lot of the times is actually sick.
YOU ARE READING
The stupid life I have
RandomUsually I don't write down what I feel and think, but sometimes, when it's really quiet, the words come over me and fill my head. So I write them down, one by one. And maybe someone will read them, and finally understand what I want to say. ~ these...
