I once cried so much my whole body started hurting.
My eyes were sore the next day and my lungs where so exhausted that it hurt to breath.
My heart felt like it was stuck.
In something, somewhere, I really don't know.
The day after you cry your eyes out, or even just the hours after your eyes stop tearing up. When your body finally stops shaking from sobs and your mouth stays closed, dry and empty from all the screaming.
Then, I feel like I'm floating, like my body all of the sudden is so light that I float out of it.
But thats the thing, it doesn't feel like my body is floating, it feels like I'm floating.
I can see my body, see how it moves and the way my lips move to say something, but I'm floating on the outside, unable to do anything.
When that happens I just look at everything. Look at the things that sourround me, the people and the trees. I see how they move and smile, and stare into the distance just like I do sometimes.
And then, when someone touches me because I've been starring at everything for to long, I don't shrug. I just turn my head arround, searching for the person that touched my arm just so slightly I could feel it.
But then, there is no one there.
I'm floating more these days, always at the edge of coming back but never really landing again.
I don't even know if that makes sences. To me it does, atleast it does somewhat.
So now, as I'm writing this, I can feel myself floating again, loosing sight of what's happening arround me, and then just seeing me.
I'm floating.
And I don't know where to.
YOU ARE READING
The stupid life I have
RandomUsually I don't write down what I feel and think, but sometimes, when it's really quiet, the words come over me and fill my head. So I write them down, one by one. And maybe someone will read them, and finally understand what I want to say. ~ these...
