I can't breath.
Not anymore.
Everything is so loud, my mind is trambeling and my body feels like its dying.
I know it's not all my fault.
I know that everything that happend was meant to be, or meant to happen at some point.
But I can't.
I can't.
All the radios are shut off.
The TV's are not working, and all the loudness that was sourrounding me these past days has disappeared just like the blue in the sky.
The sky is grey now, full of clouds hanging low above my head.
They're hanging so low I fear they could fall on me and crush me to the ground so hard I would die.
Actually, I don't know I fear that, maybe I hope that it will happen.
And sometimes I think we all think this way, but I guess we don't.
But we all are fucking dump.
We're all so fucking stupid for thinking the world is going to be ok.
And we're all so fucking selfish for thinking we did everything we could to safe it.
When the earth will burn up in the sun, no one is gonna blame anybody. Simply because there is no reason for it.
When the earth will burn up, and that is for sure, no one is even going to see it.
We know that it will happen, we feel it happening and are sure of it, but still we're opsessing over saving it.
And I'm not saying that that is bad, I'm just saying that if we keep on thinking we could safe everything that is already lost, we're going to do nothing but hurt the world.
Hurt the world as hard as we're hurting it right now.
Hurt the people that live in it and the world on it's own.
And we're going to hurt ourselfs, if you don't hink you're already doing that with every day you live.
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The stupid life I have
AléatoireUsually I don't write down what I feel and think, but sometimes, when it's really quiet, the words come over me and fill my head. So I write them down, one by one. And maybe someone will read them, and finally understand what I want to say. ~ these...
