Colleagues to lovers

Chapter 13

Lyanna and Sarah arrived at school on Wednesday morning. At ten o'clock Lyanna had to teach Ellie and Hailey's class. Only she had completely forgotten what had happened last time. Because she thought it went wrong last time on this day. But she had completely forgotten that part of the dream. So she didn't know what to do. She set up her things and started class. The class went back to working on an assignment on the computer and Lyanna sometimes helped them. At one point it was very quiet and she didn't really know what to do. She emailed Sarah and asked if she had anything to do. Sarah said she was bored, so Lyanna decided to go see her. She walked into Sarah's classroom and Lyanna stood at the window.

"Do you remember anything from that dream?", Sarah asked. "Nothing at all. At first I remembered a few things, but now I've completely lost it," Lyanna said. "How strange Lyanna. There is nothing you remember?", asks Sarah. "The only thing I remember is something with Hailey and Ellie. That's the only thing I remember," Lyanna said. "Something with Hailey and Ellie. They do look at us a lot now. And Hailey grabs her phone," Sarah said. "What are you saying?", Lyanna said surprised. Lyanna turns around and sees them standing there. Hailey with her camera pointed at them and Ellie is standing next to them. Sarah points to Hailey that she should put her phone away. This is what Lyanna was afraid of. Her dream is slowly coming true now. "Sarah, it's started," Lyanna said. "What do you mean Lyanna. I don't understand," Sarah said. "Hailey and Ellie. We're going to have a tough time," Lyanna said. "Oh no. What should we do?", asks Sarah. "Prepare ourselves. Be prepared for the worst," Lyanna said. "You scare me Lyanna," Sarah said. "That's how my dream started, too," Lyanna said. "You remember it again? But dreams are usually more intense than in real life. So I guess it won't be so bad," Sarah said. "Come with me to the hallway, I need to discuss something with you without anyone overhearing us," Lyanna said. "Okay Lyanna," says Sarah said. 

They walk to the hallway together and Lyanna starts talking. 

"Sarah, I need to tell you something," Lyanna said. "Why are you acting so weird Lyanna?", asks Sarah. "I'm breaking up with you. I don't want to be in the same situation with Hailey and Ellie again. I don't want any bullshit," Lyanna said. "Why? What did I do wrong?", asks Sarah. "You didn't do anything wrong. But I don't want to feel the same as before. I don't want to be stuck in a pit of fear again. I'm going to take therapy and it's better if we're apart by then. I don't want you to feel like shit because of me, too. I'll only complicate your life," Lyanna said. "But I get so much happier when I'm with you. I've never felt so good. I want to help you get through this painful period. Let me help you," Sarah said. "Sorry. I have to do this alone. It's better if we don't see each other for a while. If there is anything with our mentor class I will tell you," Lyanna said. 

Lyanna walks away and Sarah bursts into tears. It hurts Sarah a lot. But she still has to teach. She tries not to cry anymore but it is very difficult. She watches Lyanna walk back into the classroom and help students. How can she just pick up life again while Sarah feels all shitty. Sarah calls Avery. She knows she has a break time, so then she can take over her class for a while. Avery came straight to the classroom and took over the class. Sarah went outside and walked around for a while. She needed to process everything for a while. She was devastated. A broken heart is all that is left. She has never felt a breakup so intense. Sarah thought Lyanna was heartless. That it didn't hurt her to let her down. But that wasn't true. Lyanna felt it, too. She didn't really want to break up, but she really felt like she didn't have another choice. But she just wanted to get on with life and continue teaching. Even though everything felt much tougher than it needed to be. Lyanna closed the class early so the students could leave earlier. Then she can recover from what happened that hour. Not only is Sarah devastated and sad, but so is Lyanna. It is very double, on one hand she feels very shitty because of the breakup, but on the other hand she feels like she has fixed a lot of problems that would happen in the future. But still the sadness and guilt is many times worse. And it doesn't get better than this she thinks. She hopes. But she did not have long to think, for the next class was already at the door.