Heroin || BWWM||Book.1

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝟰𝟲

𝗝 𝗔 𝗞 𝗘

It's been three weeks since Mani's incident and I'm worried about her. She acts normal but she's so hard to read now. She's never been so absent and now she's like that even when it comes to affection. I kiss her, she kisses back softly or hesitantly. I hug her, she barely hugs me back. She's quiet. And she keeps saying that she's okay but I know it's because she doesn't want to talk about it.

Up until the next week we were fine but now it's not how it was. I hate being like this. I feel so distant from her. Dunner and I officially moved in together but for the past week and a day we've been focusing on actually making the place livable. I invited Mani over but she doesn't want to come. She thinks her mood will ruin our excitement but it's less exciting without her.

I've just resulted to focusing more on music and whatever else I could to keep my mind from spiraling out of control. We still have a big show coming soon so we've been at the company doings lots of training. It's tiring but it's not like I'm sleeping much anyway. After seeing Jeremy and going to that bridge, my nightmares are progressing.

The worst thus far was more like a flashback. I woke up in pain as if someone actually came and beat me. There was a time I would've just gotten high over and over again and forgotten all about it but that's not an option anymore. I need my girl around.

"JAKE ! Bruva you good ? You lookin' a little dazed today, what's goin on ?" James snaps me from my thoughts while dropping a box on the table. He and our friends came to help out with some rearranging in the apartment. Dunner's extra ass went overboard with appliances and there's more than enough space in here the only problem was knowing where to move everything and make it look decent.

"No yeah man I'm good. Definitely ready to be done with this though." I respond.

"I feel you. What's goin on ? How's the girlfriend?"

"She's......alive. Her parents invited us all to dinner tonight. Hopefully we'll be finished mostly or completely by then"

"You're bringing her here ?"

"Yeah. Gonna have to hit her in the head first but she'll be here." I walk over and begin helping him unpack the box and set the items out.

"Is she not up for the visit ? I haven't seen her lately either is she alright?"

"I don't know what she's up for. I thought giving her space was what she needed but I think I gave her too much. I think sometime after the dinner I'm gonna talk to her."

"Don't think my man, do. I'd say put your foot down but Mani will just put her foot down your ass so do your best mate. She loves you, it'll be fine."

She loves me. Everyone can tell me that but her. To be fair I haven't said it to her either but it's not because I don't feel it, I just don't know how.

"YO JAKE !! Bro you gotta see this !" All of my friends sprint in, jumping over everything in their way .

"Watch the couch man jeez. What is it ?"

Danny shoves his phone in my face showing me an Instagram story. The caption says "Back Home" with the location on it.

"Ok.....so ? What am I looking at ?" I ask, confused.