Heroin || BWWM||Book.1

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝟰𝟬

𝗜 𝗠 𝗔 𝗡 𝗜

"Momma he wouldn't let me leave. He's such a big baby" I complain to my mom as she sits next to me at my appointment.

"He seems to never want you to leave. You could always move in with him you know ?"

"You say that now but if I leave for real then you'll be coming over everyday. Calling and texting like a mad woman and that's IF you let me leave."

"I won't. You'll be back to get Ess everyday" She remarks.

"......you're right. Steve will miss me though"

"Now HE'S gonna be calling and texting" She laughs. "He'll have a fit if you told him you were leaving"

"If I decide to live on campus he wont have a choice. I have to leave someday"

"Seems like Jake's gonna take you before you can actually leave. You better not go to college too far, I don't know who'll be worse him or Steve"

I shake my head thinking of what they would do. "I think all of my friends would kill me if I go too far. Dej and I have actually applied for the same colleges."

"Found any ?"

"Yeah I'm just waiting pretty much. I'm not on edge about it because I'm not just sitting around I'm out a lot but you know, hopefully something happens before the semesters start."

"Is this your way of telling me you and Jake are having sex ?" She asks blatantly.

"Ma- why would you ask me that ?" I facepalm.

"What ? You didn't just tell me so I thought this was your way of telling me. Why else am I here ?"

"You offered to come I just said sure, I would've came alone. We couldn't have this conversation a different time ?"

"Mani I already knew I just didn't say anything"

"Now how exactly would you know that ?" I cross my arms, waiting to hear this explanation.

"You ? And Jake? Spending all this overnight time and you haven't had sex ? Yeah, sure. It's hard to hide scratch marks and he's definitely not putting his hands on you. After you let him have a piece of you that boy has been more of a shadow on you than before."

"My goodness-"

"I'm not worried because I know you'll protect yourself but pleasure spare me the details. I don't wanna know anymore than I already do."

"Believe me, I didn't plan on telling you any details. I'd rather you not get to know me that well."

"Imani Shane ?" The nurse calls.

"Do you want me to come with you ?" My mother asks.

"Momma you haven't seen my sunshine in about 11-12 years I think I can do this one by myself. Thanks for the offer though." I refuse while walking to the door.

"Good afternoon Ms.Shane it's good to see you again. How are you?" She greets me cheerfully.

"Good afternoon, I'm fine and you ?"