Heroin || BWWM||Book.1

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝟳𝟴

Its here. And it's LONG and kinda raunchy. Grab a snack and wash your hands ~ <3

A Playlist Because It Worked While I Was Writing

1.Consume - Chase Atlantic
2.The Walls- Chase Atlantic
3.Okay- Chase Atlantic
4. Shameless- The Weeknd
5. The Hills - The Weeknd
6.BONUS: Church- Chase Atlantic

Depending on how fast or slow you read it could work or you can restart or skip or don't use a playlist, whatever works

𝙈 𝘼 𝙉 𝙄

Sure it would rain today. I love the rain but seriously  ? Today ? Because of it most of my day went towards relaxing with a few phone calls out to my administrator in London. He's been very helpful to us and he along with Beckett will meet me to help me out when I get there. I'm supposed to get there at 12 AM their time and 6 AM ours so they'll just take me to my new home and then resume everything when I'm rested.

My first week alone is going to be busy but then I will have a while to adjust my sleep schedule and get somewhat familiar. The excitement comes and goes but my biggest challenge is probably being alone there. I'll never get used to not having family so close but I guess that's my room to be free and feel just a bit selfish.

I learned that from always being around so many people. Sometimes you have to be selfish to be happy because if I cater to everyone else I'll just forget my own needs. My parents can take care of my siblings just fine and my friends are just as responsible as I am. It'll be fine.

The time on my phone read 4:47, though the clouds in the sky were hard to read how early it is. I've sat for the last twenty of those forty-seven minutes listening to the rain, thinking if I should go to Jake's place. Dunner already spoke to me today and he's been an hour away with some family since early this morning. He won't be back until tomorrow morning to see me before I go.

It's gonna happen. I know it is.

I groaned aloud and pulled myself to grab clothes from my one stash of clothes I'm leaving to go and shower. I'd kick my own ass if I didn't get up to go to his place. What can it hurt right ?

Yes I got a wax mind your business. Isn't that like a silent but obvious thing just incase ? Going to a concert ? Shave. Going out on the town after not being out for a while ? Shave. Got big plans ? Shave. Going on a date ? Shave. Going to see your boyfriend ? Shave. Going to see your fine ass slut for an ex ? Wax, moisturize, wear fresh garments and take condoms.

My parents know where I'm going. They don't know why though and if I'm being honest neither do I. I felt anticipation. Anxious. Butterflies. Nervousness ? Why am I nervous ? My body is weak for this man I know that but damn. What's the difference now ?

I pulled myself together and down to my truck. I asked Steve to just pick my truck up from his place and let him drive me to the airport. That part is just because I really need one last ride from that gorgeous truck.

Throughout my drive there I played music hoping to calm my nerves. That lasted until I got to his door. Come on Mani. What's stopping you ? That sexy ass rockstar behind the door is what's stopping me. Sigh. I already texted him to open the door anyway.

"Why didn't you let me know before you came up here so I could come and get you ? It's raining out there "

Indeed it is raining. Goodness gracious. "I didn't think I needed to. I got a closer park so I didn't have much of a walk"