Heroin || BWWM||Book.1

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝟲𝟴(𝙎𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙯𝙚𝙙)

𝗝 𝗔 𝗞 𝗘

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟭

I'm so happy Love and I are working this out together. I'm deciding to just not think about how it'll be when she's gone and enjoy what time we have.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟮

Damn. She's so beautiful. Since it's raining she spent her day with me and will just go back to her family tomorrow. I don't what it is but I can't stop staring at her. Women were all crafted so perfectly but this one.....this one was specialized for me. There's no way I'm attracted to her like this for no reason. How does she sleep this long ? I miss her voice...and her eyes. Those eyes. They're so genuine and full of warmth. Oh and when they're lustful, I just can't handle myself around her. She drives me nuts.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟯

She's out visiting Steve's family and oddly so am I. Mom's family always has gifts for us. They've been in love with us since she met Dad. Corey always gets attacked by the kids and I'm stuck holding the babies. You'd think with the piercings and tattoos babies would run or think I'm a little weird but I think they see me as art. Penelope just turned 9 months and is still trying to eat my nose so there's that.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟰

Mani wasn't feeling good this morning so I stopped by her job to see her and we got snowcones and watched the penguins together. They stink. Cute though and she let me touch the starfish. Who knew having a zoo worker for a girlfriend was so cool ?After work she did the same and instead of snow ones and penguins we had vending machine cookies and played with sounds in the studio.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟱

Mani and I had a lot of sex. They also sent out the pictures from the photo shoot and I let her keep some. In exchange, I got a pair of her panties...not that she knows.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟲

She's with her family again. I miss her. Work is long but good news, we were invited to play at two music shows in two weeks. There's actually three shows from Friday to Sunday with two in Dallas and the other is here but I don't care, I really need some stage time to get out of this space.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟳

Damn. I'm really missing Maddie. She would've loved this pearl necklace that Love gave me. She also would've loved meeting Mya who's getting better at guitar by the way. Camilla keeps flirting but I'm not gullible and I'm here to teach.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟴

Gloomy. That's it.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟵

Feeling sick......that's odd.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟭𝟬

Had a nightmare that Stacey ran Mani off of the road and down a cliff. I only found out because in the dream Stacey came to my parents' house and said 'you can have it now. She's gone' . What the fuck was that ? I called her at 4 AM just to make sure she was okay. Her voice is so calming. That dream scared the shit out of me. This causes for a Ms.J reunion. She'll be excited to see me.....or maybe not because that means something's wrong.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟭𝟭

Dej and I decided we should throw a congratulatory party for Mani. They already did that for her with Steve's family(the ones they like of course) and we didn't attend and it's only right. Her birthday is also coming up soon and we have to celebrate that before she goes. Speaking of, she's still packing but very slowly. We all agreed to help if she needs. Another Ms.J visit and she's as helpful as always, couldn't ask for a better therapist.

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟭𝟮

The days keep passing and it's getting closer to the time for her to leave. It's saddening. I thought I was fine with her leaving but maybe I'm not. I wish I could sleep until she comes back. What kind of drug would I need for that ? Anyways, party tomorrow. This gives us another month and technically one and a half weeks with her which will be one week after her birthday but who's that specific ?

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