San's pov
I woke up in a white room, realizing it was a hospital I let out a grunt and sat up and when I look to my side I see 5 worried faces belonging to 4 of my friends yunho, mingi, wooyoung and seonghwa the last one being hongjoong.
I did not wanna wake up seeing him "what am I doing here?" I ask I honestly forgot what happened it was blurry.
"Sannie you don't remember?" Wooyoung asked softly and sat down on the bed holding my hand I shook my head and he sighed pointing to my arms and legs my eyes widen and then I go blank nodding "oh..." I said.
"Yah Choi San what do you mean oh?! You almost killed yourself!" Seonghwa yelled I only look at him with an emotionless face "why are you even here?" I ask he gasps "w-what? What are you saying sannie? I'm your best friend of course I'll be here for you" he said I sigh at this point I don't have the energy.
"You can leave I'm fine" I say and look out the window the audacity of this man then seonghwa was right in front "wae!? Why are you being so cold to me? Do you know how hard it was for me to find my best friend half dead on the bathroom floor of his room?!" He yelled looking hurt.
"W-wait seonghwa calm down he just woke up" yunho said worriedly "I know that" he said.
I scoff "well I'm so sorry to have troubled you.....matter fact I don't have the energy seonghwa so how about all of you just go I'm sorry to have worried you all" I said "sannie.." wooyoung said with tears in his eyes I felt bad but I was broken and I felt like I had no energy to do anything and I was very sad and angry I didn't know what to do.
I then felt my hand being grabbed "sannie please talk to us we're all here for you and we're worried for you joongie too" seonghwa said I rolled my eyes "yeah right" I mumbled "yah sannie wae are you acting this way you were fine two weeks ago!" Seonghwa yelled upset I let out a humorless laugh "yeah I was fine as you were fucking pounding into my ass for hours! I fucking passed out hwa and you just left me to go to your precious joongie I could've been hurt actually I was in pain for damn near that whole week! But you couldn't give a shit! All you care about is hongjoong! Well hongjoong news flash whenever you piss seonghwa off he comes to me and fucks me into fucking oblivion and I let him because I fucking love him! I do! Do you? No you don't you ditch him for your childhood friend! I'm fucking done just fucking leave all of you!!" I yell on the top of my lungs and pant right after.
I huff sitting back on the bed then two nurses come in "we heard yelling is every thing okay Mr Choi?" One of them ask I nod "everything is fine they were all just leaving actually" I said the nurse nodded "okay well everyone you'll have to leave since Me Choi needs his rest" the other nurse said catching my hint they all nodded defeated and left.
I sigh and feel tears come out my eyes did he ever even love me?! Did he only just use me..?
A few months later
A few months passed and I haven't heard from any of my friends well they did try to call me but I ignored them so they stopped.
I was a little hurt but it was my call I've been going to therapy and I've been healing myself I still do think about seonghwa but I've learned that if he never loved me I had to accept that it still hurts but what could I do?
I was currently on my way to a cafe I started going to last month it was so nice and calm there I loved it. I made a new friend too! His name is Kang yeosang and he said he was in a similar situation to me but he finally moved on I smiled I was happy for him.
He also worked at that cafe too. I entered the cafe and then I see a familiar face talking to yeosang with a smile on their face....a smile I knew all to well.
"Wooyoung?" I asked he turned around shocked "s-sannie? Is that really you? How are you? Are you okay?" He asked worriedly I giggled and nodded "I'm alright youngie I feel great actually and I feel free, I'm sorry I've been ignoring you guys I just needed that time to myself and I even met yeosang he's awesome but I see you guys already met?" I said with a chuckle causing yeosang to blush and wooyoung as well.
"Is this what you meant by moving on sangie?" I said whispering to him he blushed more hitting my arm lightly I laughed at his shyness "yah sannie what are you saying to yeo!" Wooyoung said I put on a fake offended face.
"I didn't say anything I'm offended you'd think I, your best friend would do anything" I said dramatically wooyoung laughed and pushed me lightly "I know but I'm glad you guys met I didn't think it was possible but I guess it really is a small world" wooyoung said chuckling I nodded "how and when did you guys meet?" I asked with a smile.
Yeosang blushed and wooyoung chuckled "we actually met the week after I left the hospital I saw sang here crying in the park it was a random park I found wondering I was just so sad and hurt I couldn't help you sannie so I just wondered and ended up next to that park when I heard him crying I immediately went up to him and comforted him he had a similar story to you and seonghwa's so I decided I was gonna help I didn't plan on falling for him though but I did" wooyoung said chuckling while yeosang blushed hard.
I giggled "wah~ that's so cute!" I squealed wooyoung chuckled and ruffled my hair "I'm so happy seeing your smile again sannie, do you perhaps have a special someone?" He asked smirking I huffed "nah I'm as single as a Pringle I don't think I'm looking for any-" I cut myself because I saw a face I haven't seen in months and it made so much feelings I pushed down come back.
"Huh? Sannie what's the matter?" Wooyoung asked and then looked to where I was looking his eyes widen.
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