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Mingi's pov
Every time I looked at my best friend he always looked so handsome to me. I came to terms 5 years ago that I was in fact in love with my best friend.
We've been best friends for about 7 years now and I first found out my feelings around the time where we went to LA we were close to each other and we spent more time together than ever but that was also because we shared a room together.
We were always a touchy pair of friends and it never bothered me until now and he's such boyfriend material he's always taking care of me, making sure I'm okay, making sure I get the dances down and even helps me with my rapping, he also cooks but not many people know, he's so caring to the members, staff and even people he first meets.
Every time I see him doing either of those things and more I can't help but think he's such boyfriend material and I wonder how it'd be and feel to be jeong yunho's boyfriend.
I get jealous easily to but I can't help it I want him all to myself I'm sure he hates it at times and I do too but I always let my possessive side take over.
Just thinking about it makes me sigh out loud I was currently in the practice room the members and we just finished doing paradigm and our new song halazia I was beyond exhausted but I was also thinking about many other things.
I was so into my thoughts I didn't notice yunho sit down next to me well until I was hugged from the side it made me jump and look to the side seeing yunho and when I did my eyes widen and I blushed "y-yunho" I stuttered he smiled "how is princess mingi doing?" He asked that was enough to make my face turn into a cherry.
"I-I'm o-okay just ex-exhausted" I said a blushing mess he chuckled "you know your always so cute when you blush but I don't know why you do blush around me you haven't heard anything new from me lately" he said chuckling I huffed looking away muttering "stop staring at me like that it's you making me blush"
I guess he heard because he laughed softly pecking my cheek "I'm sorry princess~" he said and even though it was jokingly I still was a blushing mess I pushed him getting up "I-I have to use the b-bathroom" I said and got up walking quickly out the room I know I got a bunch of confused stares from the members but I had to calm down my fast beating heart.
I left the room and went to the other room in here, when I get in I closed the door and sit on the floor with my knees to my chest.
If only you know what you were doing to me yunho and how your affecting me I can't take it anymore, I can't take these feelings I'm having I feel guilty all the time for having them, for feeling them towards my best friend who's probably straight and only thinks of me as a best friend and here I am being in love with him and having all these fantasies about us being together and other fantasies that I prefer not to think about right now.
I soon drift off to sleep with that last thought.
I jolt out of my sleep to my phone ringing I yawn and pick it up without looking at the caller ID and start to talk with my raspy sleepy voice "hello?" "Yah! Song mingi where the heck are you? I'm worried you said you were going to the bathroom it's been 3 hours since then and we're all looking for you! Are you okay? Did I make you uncomfortable today? I-I didn't mean to mingi it's just how we always are so I didn't think anything of it" he ranted my eyes widen I was asleep for that long?! I guess I really was exhausted.
"P-Puppy I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you feel that way you didn't make me uncomfortable it was just me and myself your perfectly fine...your perfect yunho and I'm fine I just fell asleep in one of the rooms in the building" I said feeling extremely guilty he sighs in relief " e-eodi? I'm coming to get you" he said I blushed and told him the room.
A few minutes later someone barges in and crouches down near me "p-puppy" I said and tears were already coming down my face I leaped into his lap hugging him he hugged back "I-I'm sorry I'm so stupid! I'm a bad best friend for making you feel that way and making you panic I didn't mean to I was just in my own thoughts so I left and came here to clear my head not even noticing that I fell asleep" I rambled, sobbing.
"Princess look at me" he said softly I shook my heart putting my face further in his chest he chuckles pulling my face out of his chest and grips my chin making me look at him I pout "I'm not upset at you or anything and none of this is your fault I just panicked because you didn't come back from the bathroom and I thought I went to far so stop crying yeah? You know I hate it when you do" he said and wiped my tears with his fingers.
I blush and find myself looking at his lips gosh his lips were so cute and kissable "mingi?" He said snapping out of my gay dream I blush nodding "y-yes?" I said more like questioned-
"Mingi what's the matter? Hm?" He asked I blushed I wanted to tell him so bad but I was scared of him rejecting me.
I took a deep breath and started "puppy we've known each other 7 years now and in these 7 years I found myself admiring you a lot your always so positive, so kind and caring one could even say your boyfriend material, 5 years ago I found out something about myself....I always knew I was gay so that's not it but I found out I was in love with my best friend at first I didn't wanna come to terms with it but I kept seeing you everyday you always treat me with such care like I'm fragile, you call me princess which I love way more than I should, you play games with me and teach me how to play them and your always patient with me even though I'm not as good as you.
You take care of me when I'm sick, when I'm sad or stressed or even have an anxiety attack...you're just always there for me when I need you most and that's what I fell in love with and I can't help but be jealous when you hug the other members or just show them affection, I can't help but feel possessive over you and I know I shouldn't, when you got that acting role I was very happy for you but I was also jealous because you'd be acting with a romantic interest I'm so sorry I have these feeling yunho b-but I can't help i-it I'm m-madly in love with you a-and I'll e-even understand it if you d-don't feel the same b-but p-please don't stop being my best friend I n-need you by my s-side" I said and looked down letting the tears fall.
I was ashamed, I was terrified, I couldn't even look at him.....I then felt him lift my chin up and my eyes widen when he leaned in and kissed me I kissed back a few seconds later because I was too shocked to kiss back immediately and when I did kiss him back it felt so amazing I've wanted this for years and now that I finally am able to do so I don't ever wanna stop.
We pulled away two minutes later for air both panting my face flushed and I looked at him with wide eyes "I-I" I couldn't even get out my sentence he chuckled softly licking his lips "I'm in love love with you too princess but I've been in love with you since we met back in middle school you always caught my eyes back then I wasn't sure of what I was feeling I just thought it was a crush that would go away but it never did and when we went our separate ways I was heartbroken but seeing you again at that audition and both of us ending up in the same group I was so so happy words couldn't explain how happy I was and still am even if you wouldn't return my feelings I wanted to be by your side for as long as I could, as you allowed me too" he said and I was shocked but I also felt bad I never realized his feelings sooner.
"Y-You- wow" I said he laughed softly and grabbed my neck pecking my lips "I don't think I'll ever let go of you" he said against my lips I blushed "I don't ever want you too" I said back smiling.
