Stay With Me (Kobayashi Yoshio X Reader)

Chapter 28

Previously on Chapter 27

I shake my head as I open my eyes. My hand is more firm as I lift the gun, pointing it at Hanasaki once again. "No one cares about me..." I said, in a shaky voice. My tears starts falling from my eyes once again. My thumb starts to move towards the trigger. My lips starts trembling as I cry softly.

I'm on my own...

-You're Not Alone-

Y/N P.O.V

Hanasaki raise his hands in surrender. "Don't do it, Y/N... don't let him take control of your mind" he said. My hand starts to shake, as I hold him at gun point. I turn my head slightly to look at the man. He have his arm crossed as he watches my every movement.

"You're wrong if you say you're on your own. Everyone cares about you. I care about you. Especially Kobayashi, Y/N. He loves you..." he said. I just shut my eyes tightly at every words he's saying. What Fiend With Twenty One face kept saying starts circling around my head.

"Shut up... SHUT UP!!" I yelled. Hanasaki flinched at my sudden outburst. I stare at him angrily, still pointing the gun at him. But no matter how hard I'm trying to tell myself to just end him... deep within my heart, I couldn't bring myself to do it.

"Stop, Y/N!" Someone said. I turn my head to see Nii-Chan. I turn the gun and points it at him. He lift his hands in surrender. "Don't listen to anything he's saying. Just like Hanasaki said, Y/N. You're not alone. You have me. I'm your brother, remember? Even though we're not related by blood... I care about you as if you're my real sister" he said. My glare waver, but my hand still firm although a little shaky.

No one cares about you... even if they say they do. They are all a bunch of liars... the man's voice echoed in my head. I let out a scream and clutch my head tightly. My head starts pounding painfully.

"Y/N... I'm here, Y/N" a different voice said. I open my eyes and turn my head to see it's Yoshio. Tears starts to fall from my eyes as I stare at him. He walks towards me. I point my gun at him. "You want to shoot me? Go ahead. It won't change my feelings for you, Y/N. I love you... I truly do" he said.

"Yoshio..." I said. Memories of the days I spend with him starts coming back into my mind. The day where I'm able to make contact with him for the first time.

Flashback

"I care about you. So, please stay alive. I don't want to watch the people I care for walking out of my life, especially not to death. It took so much for me to learn how to trust... I-I d-don't want to l-lose that agin. I don't want to lose you, Kobayashi..." I said. My voice cracks as I said the last sentence. He just looks down, without saying anything.

I take this as a chance to try and get closer to him. To my surprise, his forcefield didn't activate. I reach out and gently cup the side of his cheek. He flinched at the sudden contact. He turns to look at me, shock is written all over his face.

"H-How?" He said, voice trembling a little. I shake my head slightly, letting him know that I didn't know either. I don't know what I'm doing.

End of Flashback

I'm able to touch him because his heart is comfortable to be around me. Yoshio is someone who only wishes to die. His shield responds to his desire to end his life. But it did not have any effect on me, because around me... he feels as if life is worth to live for.

I look down as I lower the hand that's holding the gun. My grip on the gun loosens as it drops on the floor. With it comes my body, as I collapse on my knees. My whole body starts trembling violently as I stare at the ground.

I feel my body getting pulled into an embrace. I turn my head slightly to see it's Yoshio. I choke out a sob as I let my body collapse to his. He cradle me in his arms. I bury my face into the crook of his neck. My hand clutching the front of his shirt. I feel his hand running through my hair.

"It's okay... you're okay. I'm here, Y/N. I'm here..." he whispered. I keep crying as I hold onto him for dear life. I can't believe I almost let myself lose control. I just can't believe that I almost hurt Hanasaki, Nii-Chan and Yoshio. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if something happen to them.

I feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn my head and make eye-contact with a pair of blue eyes. "Hanasaki..." I said, in a weak voice. More tears starts to stream down both of my cheeks. I pull away from Yoshio and throw my arms around Hanasaki's neck. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I almost hurt you..." I said. He hugs me back and gently runs his hand through my hair.

Yoshio joins in the hug, as the two of them tries to calm me down. I cling onto them as I keep crying, regretting my action. After all, I almost hurt the three people that have become so important to me.

"Y/N" someone said. I turn my head to look at the person through tears in my eyes. Nii-Chan smiles softly at me. He lift his hand, gently placing it on top of my head. "It's okay. You were not in control of yourself..." he said. The two boys releases me, allowing me to hug the man that have became like a brother to me.

"Nii-Chan..." I cried out. He runs his hand through my hair comfortingly. I tighten my arms around his neck as he held me close, trying his best to calm me down. I'm glad that I managed to stop myself, or I'm going to regret having hurt these people. Having them this close to me makes me sure. That... I'm not alone.

*to be continued*