Betrayed and Broken

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Skylar's POV
I can't believe I worked up the nerve to hold his hand first. I didn't care about whatever was going on with Kail. I was loving the feeling of his hand in mine. I swear the tingles have gotten stronger. When we entered his office, he sat behind his desk. When I asked him where he wanted me to sit, I was hoping he would tell me to sit on his lap, but he didn't. He said I could sit wherever I wanted. I contemplated on sitting in a chair, then decided fuck it, I've done made the first move by holding his hand. I'm not going to chicken out now. I went and sat on his lap.

I loved how we were flirting with each other. When he put his face in my neck, I thought I was going to melt. When Dave came in and told us what he thought Kail's plan was, I couldn't breathe. I felt my anxiety skyrocket. I was about to have a panic attack. Haze pulled me to his chest and rubbed circles on my back, calming me down. I know he probably felt my fear.

"What is this idea?" Haze asked Dave. "Well, Alpha, forgive me for saying this, but I think you should mark her. Before you object, hear me out. Skylar is supposed to be our Luna. Everyone sees her as our Luna. We also see how you guys look at each other, and how much you love each other. So why don't you just mark her? Once someone is marked, no one else can mark them unless their mate dies or they eventually reject each other. She would be taking her rightful place. And if we are all wrong and you guys don't love each other, you can still mark her. She can still be our Luna, but you guys will just live together as friends. Either way, she will be marked, and there won't be anything. Kail or anyone else can do about it, " he said with a smile. Sky and I just looked at each other.

"I will let you guys discuss this in private," Dave said as he got up and walked out of the door, shutting it behind him. Haze was the first one to break the silence. "What do you think?" he asked. "Um, I don't know. What do you think?" I ask. "Well, I want to do whatever it is you want to do," he replied. "What do you want?" I ask. "Well, I know what I want, but I don't think you want the same thing just yet," he replied with a sad smile. Come on, Sky, be brave. It's now or never. I looked Haze in his eyes, and then I kissed him. It was like the fourth of July with all the sparks I felt from this kiss. He instantly kissed me back.

Our first kiss was amazing. I didn't want it to end. When Haze pulled away, I felt my heart sink. "Skylar, I don't want you to feel like you have to do this. I want you to kiss me because you want to, not because you're scared, " he said as he looked at my lips. "Look at me, Haze," I say as I lift his chin up. "I didn't kiss you because I was scared. I kissed you because I've been waiting for you to kiss me all night" I took a deep breath.. "Look, I'm not sure how you feel about me, but I know how I feel about you," I replied. "How do you feel about me?" he asked. "How do you feel about me?" I asked. "I asked you first," he said with a smile. "You have to tell me how you feel first. If you don't feel the same way I do, I won't be able to handle another rejection," I say with unshed tears in my eyes.

Haze leaned in and gave me a gentle kiss on my lips. "Skylar, I love you. I have loved you for the past year. I know I rejected you, but as I said, I instantly regretted it. That night, I was so pissed that you were with Kail. I was so confused because our bond had been broken. Then I followed you and Kail and watched you guys have sex. I know it was wrong, but I couldn't stop myself. I'll be honest with you I was pissed, but hearing your moans turned me on so much that I took my frustration out on Amber. Everything Stacey said is true. I don't know why I didn't realize the amazing person you were until after I rejected you. It's like the pain from the rejection, and seeing you with someone else broke the spell of my stupidity. It killed me to see you with him and hear you with him. I didn't say or do anything because I just wanted you to be happy, and you looked really happy, " he replied.

"I never told you this, but when the moon goddess came to me that night in my dream, she asked me if I would give my life for you. I said yes with no hesitation. She asked me if I loved you, and I said yes. Then she told me the only way to save you was to take a leap of faith. I had to jump off a cliff, and again, without any hesitation, I jumped. Then I woke up. I have analyzed that dream a hundred times, and the only thing I came up with was that jumping off that cliff was the goddess's way of me proving how much I loved you and how much your life was more important to me than my own" he said as he looked me in the eye.

Oh my God. I had no idea he was willing to give his life for me. I know that he took beatings for me, but I thought he was doing it because he was my alpha, and it was his job to protect me. I never thought he loved me. I don't even know what to say. I just know that I love him.

I kiss Haze. I kiss him with so much need. He kisses me back. I turn so that I'm straddling him. I break the kiss and start kissing down his neck. "I love you, Haze. I don't know the exact moment my feelings changed for you, but they did. I love you so much more than I've ever loved anyone," I say, as I'm peppering kisses on his neck and by his ear. I can feel his erection. I kiss him and start to grind myself against  his erection slowly. Haze kisses me back and starts running his hands over my body. He works his hands down to my ass and pulls me against his body. I moan as I feel his erection rub against my clit. Haze starts kissing down my neck, causing me to moan again. I press myself harder against his erection, and he growls.

He slowly pulls me away from him. "What's wrong?" I ask while trying to catch my breath. "Skylar, I love you, and I want to be with you, and lord knows I have been dreaming of being inside you, but are you ready? Like really ready? We don't have to go too fast. We can go slow. I'm not going anywhere, " he says through ragged breaths. I smiled at him and gently kissed his lips. He is willing to take things slow. He is being so considerate of my feelings. I love that, but I know what I want and need right now. Him, just him.