Psycho Killer

Run

Lane punished me for standing up when I wasn't supposed too.
My knees feel like jelly.
He yanks me into that room again.
He ties me to the weird contraption but he doesn't do anything
Days later, I'm still tied up.
He appears and he sits down.
He spreads his legs on the chair as I wince
He stands up and he goes to leave.
"Please sir- I really need the bathroom"
I wince as he presses on my bladder
"I can get you a bucket or you can hold it"
"Can't you just let me go to the bathroom normally?"
He shakes his head as he watches me squirm.
I sigh.
"Bring me the bucket"
"No. Manners weren't used so no"
"Please?!"
"NO!"
I cross my legs and I wince.
I end up letting it all go minutes later
I feel my jeans clinging to my thighs
"I- I tried to hold it"
He stares at me in disbelief and disgust.
"YOU NAUGHTY BITCH!"
"I'M SORRY!"
I wake up and I feel like the world is collapsing.
I stumble into the bathroom and grab my blades
I cut myself and it doesn't stop bleeding
I hold a old rag over it as I cry.
Why do I do this to myself and why do I like it?
I lie back down next to a sleeping and oblivious JJ.
Later, I pull at my sleeves slightly as she speaks about me having Amelia today.
"Yeah, can you stay with me?"
"Of course I can"
She smiles as she feeds Lux.
I feed Grayson and Sloane and then we drop them at her parent's.
"Thanks guys"
"No problem, any time"
They're taking them for a few nights again so I hand them their diaper bags.
We leave and head to the centre.
I wait until Amelia calls my name.
I walk in whilst biting my nail.
JJ sits down next to me and Clara takes her seat.
"Are you okay with Clara being here?"
"Yes of course"
I smile lightly.
"Okay how have you been feeling since our last session?"
"I've been feeling a lot of despair...um I don't feel- happy and I know that I should."
"You shouldn't feel happy when you aren't"
"I- I have an amazing wife-"
I look over to JJ who's smiling at me
"who's still with me despite everything and I should be happy!"
"You can't be happy all the time baby!"
"I HAVE TO BE!"
I start to sob and she hugs me tightly.
"Baby...look at me. Nobody can be happy all the time"
"Exactly"
Amelia comments as Clara nods.
"I want to be...it has failed"
"Obviously baby"
She stares at me as I break down again and o sob.
I clutch my chest as it hurts to cry.
I take a sip of water as my hand shakes
"When was the last time you self harmed?"
I don't respond.
"Em?"
"RUN"
The voice yells.
I try to ignore it but next thing I know, I'm out that door.
I run as fast as I can as JJ runs after me.
She's chasing me down like a unsub
Hunting me
"Baby please...stop running! THINK ABOUT THE BABIES!"
I keep running at a high speed away from her.
I weave in between cars whilst she screams in fear and I disappear.
I feel the babies kicking me harshly
I crouch down behind a big sign and I vomit.
I move away from the sign and I take a couple of deep breaths.
I catch sight of JJ and I keep running.
I run through a park.
I feel a power within to keep running and it's high octane.
I keep running and I loose sight of her.
I keep running until I finally collapse at the other side of town.
My arms are grazed and my head is bleeding slightly.
I feel so dizzy and nauseous.
I walk into a shopping mall and I have no clue where the hell I am.
I look like hell.
My hair is everywhere
I notice that a police officer is surveying me and checking her phone.
I stumble over to her.
"Could I use your- use your phone please?"
I approach a police office
"Are you Emily Prentiss!?"
She questions.
She stares blankly at me as she puts a hand on my shoulder to prevent me from using her phone.
"Can I use it or not?"
She shakes her head.
"You've been reported as a missing person."
"Fuck"
"I'm required by law not to let you leave, come with me sweetie"
She grabs onto my sweater as I sob.
She brings me into the back of the shopping centre where police officers have their lunch and the sick room is also there.
She sits me down.
"I'm just going to get you medically assessed while we wait for your wife to join us"
"No! no she's gonna be mad!"
I cry.
"It'll be okay"
She rubs my shoulder.
I pull up my top for the doctor who checks the babies heartbeats.
"Everyone is fine"
She smiles at me and I thank her
She treats my injuries and she leaves.
I twiddle my thumbs and I throw up again from anxiousness.
The officer rubs my back as I shiver.
She lets me cling to her as I sob.
"I- I treat her so bad and- and I don't know why!"
I sob.
"It's because you're suffering honey"
I stop sobbing eventually.
I'm left alone in the sick room and I try to sleep.
I hear the door open.
"Where is she?!"
It's JJ's voice.
Prepare to be yelled at!
The voice tells me.
JJ bursts in and she yanks off the curtains
I sit up suddenly.
"WERE YOU TRYING TO GET YOURSELF KILLED!"
"I- I DON'T FUCKING KNOW!"
"COME ON!"
She yanks me to a standing position and she walks me to the car.
"Get in!"
She's pissed off.
I get in and she puts a seatbelt on for me.
She then restrains me further.
"I don't like this? Take it off!"
"NO! NOT AFTER YOU RAN LIKE THAT AT SIX AND A HALF MONTHS PREGNANT!"
She locks the door and that pushes me over the edge.
"FUCK YOU JJ!"
"FUCK YOU EMILY!"
She yells as she slams her hands on the wheel.
She drives me home and she takes the restraints off.
"Get inside right now"
I attempt to go around the back but she grabs me and she forces me inside.
"Start talking!"
"No! I don't particularly wanna talk!"
I rush up the stairs and she follows me quickly.
I close the door in our bedroom
She opens it and she closes it.
"GET OUT!"
"NO! START FUCKING TALKING!"
I start to sob and I collapse on the floor.
I shake my head and I scream.
JJ suddenly is on the floor and she's rubbing my back.
"I'm so sorry baby, I've been a bitch. I'm on my period , I'm exhausted and I'm just seriously worried for you."
I continue to sob.
"I- I'm sorry! I cause all the shit in our lives"
"It's not your fault baby"
"It...it is! I was kidnapped! I hurt myself! I got pregnant! TWICE! I hurt you ever single day! I can see it in your eyes!"
"I'm just tired of seeing you in pain baby"
She starts to cry when I cling to her.
She rocks me as we both cry.
"I- I didn't mean any of the stuff I said!"
"Me too baby"
"I hurt myself this morning and I felt like I was trapped in that room, that's why I ran"
I confess to her.
She kisses my arms once she rolls up my sleeves.
"I- I love you so much! You don't deserve me"
"I love you more than anything on this planet baby."
She helps me up off the floor and she bandages my arms for me.
"We're gonna talk tomorrow baby."
"Oh- oh okay"
I nod with tears escaping.
She smiles slightly as I hug her.
I kiss her and I get into bed
"You're safe honey"
She repeats until I fall asleep in her embrace.