TRIGGER WARNING: EATING DISORDER
for the love of god play nice
Tachihara: i think everyone had a crush on chuuya at some point in the port mafia
Tanizaki: AYOO
Tachihara: am i wrong????
Akutagawa: You are not wrong
Gin: I'm a lesbian but I agree
Higuchi: If I wasn't so obsessed with the Akutagawa siblings I would be head over heels with that man
Fyodor: even i can get behind the chuuya simp train
Chuuya: what the fuck
Kunikida: A bit like how Dazai has everyone in the ADA wrapped around his finger
Ranpo: can confirm, dazai is sexc
Atsushi: he IS fine
Yosano: a womaniser if you will
Kyouka: Dazai is very handsome.
Sigma: When he danced with me <3
Jouno: never seen him, but can confirm he's hot
Haruno: I had a crush on him when I joined
Naomi: So did I
Dazai: GUYS WHY AM I JUST HEARING ABOUT THIS
Atsushi: the soukoku effect
Dazai: we're just the hottest couple
Naomi: The finest husbands
Chuuya: i'm confused on how people even find me that attractive
Akutagawa: What do you mean Chuuya?
Chuuya: i'm not the nicest person guys AND i'm... heavy
Dazai: WHO TOLD YOU THAT
Chuuya: I DID BECAUSE I'M SMALL AND TUBBY
Tanizaki: nah what
Ranpo: bro can manipulate gravity and thinks he's heavy
Gin: Who let the angst in
Fukuzawa: Do you need to speak to someone Chuuya?
Chuuya: NO I'M FINE
Dazai: YOU'RE PERFECT JUST THE WAY YOU ARE AND IF ANYONE HAS A PROBLEM WITH THAT I WILL PERSONALLY CURB STOMP THEM AND THEN SHOOT THEM MAFIA STYLE
Nikolai: THAT'S SO ROMANTIC
Mori: I think we should leave this alone.
Akutagawa: Best idea you've had all your life
Private Messages: Dazai > Chuuya
Dazai: baby are you okay?
Chuuya: yeah i'm fine. just a little confused on why people find me so attractive
Dazai: you're literally so hot bro
Chuuya: you saying bro is not helping
Dazai: you said you were heavy and tubby? you're literally a healthy weight
Chuuya: the truth is, i've always struggled with my body image and insecurities and i was diagnosed with anorexia after you left the mafia. i thought i was unlovable and i started skipping meals and then i started fainting on missions.. all in the hopes that when you came back i would look good enough for you to never leave me again.
Dazai: why did you never tell me?
Chuuya: i thought it would make you leave me again. i'm so scared of you throwing me away again osamu. it's been a long 4 years and i was so ill that kouyou started arguing with mori about whether or not i should be hospitalised. i got better with time and support from my subordinates but i guess mentally i haven't fully recovered. i actually considered ending it all multiple times, how no one would truly care now that you were gone. i was just seen as a weapon by mori and without you i was just dangerous. what was the point in my living? i didn't feel human. i may not be obsessed with suicide, but that doesn't mean i haven't tried it.
Dazai: i'm so sorry for leaving you but do you know my reasonings?
Chuuya: yeah yeah, dead best friend, affected you so much that you'd leave your husband
Dazai: .
Chuuya: forget it dazai, pretend i never told you anything
Dazai: i wish you could see yourself through my eyes chuuya, you're so pretty and funny and your laughter is so attractive and yeah your sense of style is wacky but that's just because i'm boring with my fashion
Dazai: i love you for you. i would never want you to be sick and if i had come back to a literal skeleton on death's door, i don't think i'd be able to live with myself
Dazai: you are my reason for living and if you can't see that, if you had actually succeeded, i wouldn't be here today. i love you so much that i question my sanity. i may not be as insane and murderous like fyodor and nikolai but it IS insane to think of a world without you.
Chuuya: way to be sappy
Dazai: don't turn the subject around chuuya
Chuuya: just. don't treat me differently
Dazai: don't worry, i'll still bully you my little munchkin
Chuuya: is that a fat joke
Dazai: WHAT NO I WOULD NEVER
Chuuya: I'M KIDDING OH MY GOD
Dazai: i take back everything i ever said. you are the reason for my suicidal tendencies and you will be in my suicide note.
for the love of god play nice
Nikolai: i thought this was a happy fanfiction. why is there ANGST
Fyodor: the author is stressed and needed to project on her favourite character
Nikolai: that's so messed up bro
Fukuchi: What... are they talking about?
Teruko: fuck knows
Tecchou: i've had enough of those two
Nikolai: you love us!
Jouno: no we don't
Nikolai: WHAT HURTS THE MOST IS PEOPLE CAN GO FROM PEOPLE WE KNOW TO PEOPLE WE DON'T
Jouno: nope.
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