Secret Sins || Levi x Reader

Secret Sins || 1.23

(The Sinful Soldier)

"Resurrection never existed, until I came along."

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I'm going to kill him.

Not in a simple gunshot wound to the head, no.
I'm going to make sure he's in agony before that ever happens, I want to make sure he's suffering the worst fate before my bare hands end his damned life.

Looking at the back of his head makes the fury rage inside my body, burning the ability to control myself. My hands are eager to be wrapped around his neck, suffocating him from any oxygen.

Like he deserves it.

I'm gripping the reins tight, the leather etching into my skin harshly. He's in front of me right now, with an arm gone and dead soldiers to bare on his shoulders.

Half of them I killed.

But no one will ever know, since all the ones that do know are dead.

I only killed a couple, 10 at best. Considering I didn't care to count since my blood was boiling beyond my control. I needed a form of relief at that moment and killing titans didn't please me enough to sustain the hate washing over me.

They were going to die anyway, and I needed to support my cruel 'ability' somehow. It's not like I'll be able to set a blade in someone for a long while, so why not make the best of what I had.

Because all I know, is that someone is bound to report me. Who knows when? But someone will.

The Scouts can't have someone who's dead on their records being alive, and especially when that person is related to someone who's status can shut the entire Regiment down in a matter of a sentence.

So what the Scouts are going to do with me is still unplanned, because once we entire Karanese and head towards Trost.

I'm no longer "dead".

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We've been riding for a while now.

And with each passing second, I kept envisioning the possible outcomes of my actions. I need to get out of this, and Trost is by no means safe for me to stay at anymore — not that I planned on staying there anyways — Because now Erwin knows that I'm alive and well Levi knows where I live, so I'm guessing those two would work together.

But what real motive would he have to lock me behind bars?

My mom will most likely find out that I'm alive and breathing, eventually. And when she does, I can already assume she will press charges against the Scouts and this time get them shut down for good, if my stepfather doesn't intervene and call me all sorts of names, saying that I'm not a part of the family and shit.

Not that I want to be.

I don't want to be a part of anything. God I'm so fucking stupid for doing this, why can't I just live a normal life where no one bothers me? I just want to live freely without having a war wage inside me every single fucking day.