Secret Sins || Levi x Reader

Secret Sins || 1.5

(The Sinful Soldier)

"I don't learn from the pain,
I make it."

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I stayed in the far backs of Stohess district watching all the chaos unfold. All the blood, all the death, all the tears, all the destruction, and for what? What is the reason for all of this? Is it because they are bored? Maybe it's because of rivalry? Power? Mentality? Dignity? Insanity? Anger? Unfairness?

It can be anything. Humans are known to do whatever the fuck they please, and humans who have the ability to become titans are the most capable of making that happen. They have the power to destroy anything, everything that stands in their way can be demolished and ruined. Houses, families, friends, neighbors, all in shambles because of the titans.

And this proves to me just how much humans can do when given the power of titans.

Screams of Erens titan ripped through my ears, almost at the brink of rupturing my eardrums. His screams were worse than anything I've ever heard before. They sounded like the screams of someone who can't differentiate between anger and sadness.

Honestly, neither can I.

There's no line that draws between sadness and anger, they blend together and make you feel like the world is crushing you between the fine lines until you finally burst and something far beyond any emotions envelopes you and makes you become something even humans consider inherently dangerous.

"Insane." They call you.

In the distance I saw blood get spewed from all sorts of direction from the 'Female Titans' face. I brought my legs close, tucking them towards my chest as I rested my chin against my protruding knees.

It's pretty shitty knowing that this is the only feeling of comfort I get in this life. No one is ever there to tell me that everything will be alright, that everything will go back to how it used to be. That my decisions were for the best, and that I didn't ruin who I could've become. But in reality, I've ruined pretty much everything about myself. No words would ever comfort me and reassure me that all my actions were for the best. Because deep down I know what I've done, I know the damages I've inflicted on myself and others, I know I'm not worthy of comfort.

I'm not worthy of anything in life.

Immediately I rushed to my feet ignoring the sick sense of comfort behind.

I saw a Black flare signal.

And with that I saw the 'Female Titan' running for the walls in a way of an escape. She's acting like a dog who's been cornered, and all she has left is to either escape or face her danger. And seeing her current state, I can't blame her. She looked like she was put through a meat grinder, except the blades were duller than my ability to show affection.

Pulling my hood up and over my head a smirk grew louder on my face.

I noticed where the black Flare Signal came from and without a shred of doubt, I knew it was Erwin Smith who administered it. It's always him, if he finds an opportunity, he will always take it. Erwin's arm was held high above his head with the flare gun still in his grasps just waiting for me to show up.

Attaching both hooks to either side of the buildings I pivoted my body flush with the air moving horizontally with the dense feeling of being trapped inside my mind. My body cut through the air as I passed Erwin's body by just a few feet feeling his presence fill my body with plundering strength. His eyes were fixated in front of him unfazed by the speeds I was accelerating at.