Secret Sins || Levi x Reader

Secret Sins || Journal Entry #1

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March 626

I don't have an explanation as to why I'm starting to write, however I felt it was needed.

I've been getting distant from my family lately. I rarely eat with them let alone speak with them, I typically stay in my office most days working on documents that my firm assigns me to complete within the day.

The only times they see me is when I'm out getting food, and occasionally when they tell me to go out shopping for products when they can't.

And with that my wife has been getting less and less attention from me, which in fact is disturbing her emotions from my loyalty, even though I haven't thought once about cheating on her or anything of that sort. But I can't help to feel that she thinks that way.

And my daughter, she's secluded in her room most of the day, and I'm starting to worry about her. My son tries his hardest to help her with exploring the world, but as soon as she wants to go somewhere my wife tells her she's too young.

I can't seem to get her logic.

She's six, and yes, I understand she's young, but she's with an adult. As long as she's in my sight I'll take her wherever she wants. But my current situation it's hard to go many places, and the one place I want to take her may not even be safe for me, yet I still help.

I have a client who lives in a horrible area which was shunned down for being filthy and where most criminals tend to live due to no MPs being stationed there anymore. But with that aside, she has a son who's the same age as my daughter, and I've thought about taking her down there to meet him.

But without my wife's knowledge, because I know what she will do. If I even dare bring up that place, she will become angry and tell me to never speak of it, because she thinks that place is a waste of time and money.

She works in the financial part for the civilians and the military, she plans out their income and what she'll need to pay to keep their area running, and with that comes the underground's. She hates them for how much money she has to spend on them to only waste away. And same goes for the Scouts, she despises what they do, and how much money goes to waste.

At one paint she was debating on shutting it down, however I stopped her.

But nonetheless, I'm worried about my daughter F/N. I'm afraid for her, scared even. She's not like her brother, and she's also not like her mother.

She's like me.

And that's what scares me.

But with a lot of persuading over many days, my wife finally decided to let me take our daughter out for a couple hours.

And so I did, I told her I'd take her somewhere to meet someone. She was scared, which was why I wanted to take her. But I kept her close, I also had a gun on me for extra protection.

When we got there my client greeted me and was a little bit shocked that I actually took my daughter with me since she knows where she lives and all, but I told her it was alright.

She wasn't sure if her son would speak since he's just as shy as my daughter, however I thought it was perfect. They will both get themselves out of their comforts zones together, and that's what I wanted. I want her to meet someone with the same Emotional challenges.

At first it was awkward, very awkward. She hid behind my leg terrified to see him, however with a lot of reassuring she waved at him, and so did he.

It wasn't my first time seeing my client's son, however seeing them both together just gave me that...hope.

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-T