Married To A Playgirl

Chapter 6

Asteria Celeste Averix Levington POV

When I arrived home, I turned off all the lights, indicating that Kian hadn't arrived yet. Perhaps Kate, the girl I despise the most among all those Kian has been with, is with her. Their closeness makes me feel jealous and uneasy. I fear this situation doesn't bode well for our relationship.

It's like being caught in a tug-of-war between a mother and a wife, each vying to claim you as their own.

Perhaps she finds happiness with Kate that she doesn't experience when we're together. We often overlook it, but there's still an underlying struggle. It's as if we're strangers, unable to communicate or connect, which doesn't portray a typical couple dynamic.

I went to our room and sat on the bed. Suddenly, thoughts of Kian and Kate being affectionate flooded my mind. As I dwelled on it, tears began to stream down my face uncontrollably. I just feel the need to cry, my cheeks wet with tears.

"I think I like you," I whispered, confessing my feelings. It's likely why I feel so much pain and struggle to breathe properly when she's with someone else, especially when it's another woman who I know will bring her happiness.

Now I've come to realize my feelings for Kian. Despite the pain she may cause me, I won't hold it against her. Even if she portrays me as her wife on paper, I'll still stand by her. Even if she chooses to be with Kate, I'll accept it as long as she remains mine. In the end, she'll always come back home to me.

Tomorrow.....

Upon awakening, I discovered Kian was not beside me. I searched the guest room, but she wasn't there either.

"I'm consumed by jealousy!" I exclaimed, the sound echoing throughout the house.

In the end, no one can hear me. She couldn't hear me either.

Tears welled up as I asked myself, "Why is Kate always the one with you?" Once again, I found myself crying. Retreating to the room, I headed to the closet and reached for a floral dress.

Afterwards, I made my way to the bathroom and, as expected, took a shower. Once done, I focused on drying my hair before proceeding to put on my shoes.

"Perhaps I need to indulge in some enjoyable activities. I need to have fun to prevent these feelings from overwhelming me," I murmured to myself as I struggled to walk to my car.

Upon getting into my car, I started the engine and drove swiftly. Upon arriving at the mall, I headed straight to the dress shop, as it's my only hobby. However, unable to decide on anything, I left the shop and settled onto a nearby bench. Suddenly, someone covered my eyes.

"Guess who this is," she said playfully, covering my eyes. I recognized the voice immediately; I couldn't be mistaken.

"Sorin," I replied confidently, knowing it was indeed Sorin who had covered my eyes.

"Why are you alone? Where's the girl who was all over you at the bar? Isn't that your wife?" she asked in quick succession.

"No comment," I replied with a laugh.

"It's all just showbiz," she said with a laugh.

"Before I answer your questions, let's switch places," I promised, and she simply nodded in agreement.

We settled into a restaurant, ordered our food, but to my surprise, it didn't cost me anything. I wondered if Sorin insisted it was free to prevent me from objecting.

"Answer please," she remarked, making puppy eyes at me. In response, I playfully pinched her cheek.

"Ouch," she complained, rubbing the cheek I pinched. I responded by making a peace sign, trying to lighten the mood.

"Sorry," I apologized, and she simply nodded in acknowledgment.

"Regarding your first question, I'm alone because I was feeling bored at home, and I didn't have anyone to keep me company, so I decided to leave. My best friend is preoccupied with het love life," I explained in response to her inquiry.

"Is Cyra your best friend?" she added. I nodded in confirmation.

"In response to your second question, the girl who was all over me at the bar isn't here because she's with her girlfriend," I replied, finding it difficult to answer honestly, but it's the truth.

"Girlfriend?"

"In response to your third question, yes, that's my wife," I confirmed, noticing the sadness that washed over her expression. It seemed as though something had caught in her throat, and she was struggling to swallow it down.

"We're just a couple on paper. Our marriage was arranged," i explained, a smile replacing the sadness that had been on her face earlier.

"Well, what if you believe you love each other?," Sorin began, but inside, I knew I was the only one with feelings for her. It was all one-sided, just me. I wished it were mutual, but reality doesn't always match our hopes. Dream on, Asteria. Keep dreaming.

Why did I still feel this way about her? Despite everything, I still found myself falling in love with her. But what woman could prevent you from liking her? She's a complete package when you think about it. The only issue is that she's a playgirl. That's it. But when she changes, you'll undoubtedly be happy with her.

But who could change her? From what I observe now, it's certainly not me. Perhaps another woman could. Maybe someone like Kate. I can see the joy in Kian's eyes when she's with her. It's evident that Kate affects her differently compared to her other partners. And it's different from my influence as well.

When I arrived home, I saw Kian sleeping on the sofa. I couldn't help but gaze at her face. Her mouth was slightly open, and she looked exhausted, clearly having fallen asleep out of tiredness.

She's truly beautiful handsome.

Why didn't she sleep in our room? Perhaps she doesn't want to be close to me. It's painful to think that she doesn't want to be near what I desire.

It's natural for negative thoughts to creep in when we're already hurting. It's possible that she simply fell asleep on the sofa out of exhaustion, without any deeper meaning. Recognizing our tendency to overthink and become paranoid is the first step in overcoming these feelings. It's important to try to approach situations with a more balanced perspective and not let our negative thoughts consume us.