Bell the white core mage (Being rewritten)

Denatus

Another graphic warning you have been warned.

Bell POV

As I walked away I could feel my anger slowly disappearing as I drew closer to home. Seeing as I was now out of earshot I hunched over and emptied the contents of my stomach on the ground.

My throat burned and my body was shaking. I could feel the sweat on my forehead and the chills running down my back. Did I really just do that?

I thought that this brutality would be a one-time thing. I don't want to be like this I want to save people. I know I have to get my hands dirty to do so but not like that.

Seeing the image of me using downforce again caused me to eject the rest of my breakfast. Feeling my body shake even more I tried taking deep breaths until I felt an unfamiliar hand on my shoulder.

Acting on instinct I spun around putting my arm around the person's neck and pinning them to the wall. I stopped any further attacks when I saw the scared light grey eyes staring back at me.

"I'm sorry I thought you needed help please don't hurt me" I let her go before sighing. Looks like I'm still a little jumpy from the fight.

"No, I'm sorry about that you just scared me," I said stepping back to give her some space. I saw her take a breath as well before she spoke again. "I'm sorry for scaring you" she then saw my hand. "Does your jumpiness have to do with your hand?" she asked pointing it out. I looked down a saw the mangled mess of broken and bruised knuckles. I then hid it behind my back.

"Yeah. Met some unsavory people" I said telling a half-truth. She didn't seem to believe me but didn't push it. "Well if you need someone to talk to just head to the hostess of fertility and ask for Syr," she said walking away. "Why help me," I asked before she stopped at the entrance of the alleyway. "Because you seem like you needed help," she said smiling at me and walking away. "What an odd girl," I thought. I then started to walk back home again feeling a little bit better. Just wish I didn't have to empty my stomach.
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I arrived back home a few minutes later and could sense everyone in there. I hesitated to open the door. Would they be scared of me? Would they hate me for what I did? All these questions started to fill my head and I was scared to open the door. I didn't have to however as a golden-haired renard did for me.

"Master Bell," she said as she pulled me into a hug. I then hear a bunch of footsteps running towards me and felt more arms around me. "You're not scared of me?" I asked confused. They all let go and looked at me confused. "Why would we be you did nothing wrong," Haruhime said. I looked over at Regis confused. "Didn't you tell them?" I asked through our mental link.

"I did" was his response before he cut it. I looked back at my familia still a little nervous. "But it was just mindless violence at that point. I had already won I didn't have to go that far"

Aisha made her way through the crowd before putting her hand on my shoulder. "That piece of shit deserved everything that was coming to him" Aisha firmly said. I finally felt the weight on my shoulders fade away before I sighed in relief. "I'm just glad you all aren't scared of me"

"Why would we be we know you don't just go around doing stuff like that," Nazha said. I then let out a chuckle of relief before taking another deep breath.

"Well that's a weight off my shoulders" I then looked around a noticed Miach and Lili were gone. "Where's Miach and Lili?" I asked. "They're in the back so Miach can give Lili her new falna in privacy," Nazha said.

"Must feel surreal getting for new familia members in less than a week huh Nazha" I jokingly asked. She laughed a little before responding. "It's nice having new people join us and it couldn't have been done without you" she reminded me. We then heard the door in the back open and Miach and Lili walk out.
"Everyone please welcome the newest member of our familia," Miach said pride in his voice. Cheers went out and it looks like it's time for another celebration.
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