𝙊𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 - 𝐵.𝐸

12 - 𝘊𝘪𝘢𝘰 𝘈𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦

"Attention passengers, we will be arriving in Palermo in about 45 minutes. Please keep your seatbelts on for the reminder of the flight and Italy will be welcoming you shortly. Attenzione passeggeri arriveremo a Palermo circa 45 minuti..." The pilot announces before the Italian translation plays on the speakers above our heads.

I took my headphone out of my left ear that I was sharing with Alison to get a minute of silence before landing. It took us five hours to get to New York before we hopped on the plane to Italy. It was a weird feeling being on the east coast once again. Seeing the Manhattan skyline and the red maple trees covering the fields outside the city felt like home. But it wasn't anymore. it hasn't been ever since Scarlett left me.

It was currently our 14th hour in the sky and we all looked like a mess. I sat in 34B in between Bil and Alison, and Jason sat with Kit at the back of the plane as Zoe sat with Claire at the front...on completely opposite sides away from each other. The two used to be inseparable ever since I met them and now? They're separate. Thinking about it hurts my brain. Zoe's mad that we lied and killed Robin, and Jason, although he's upset, understands why we did what we did...Zoe just needs time.

My eyes traveled up the hem of Alison's light blue purple sweater, noticing the band aid across her hand and a few other faded red nicks on her fingers. The blood and shattered glass didnt scare us that night. What scared us were the little white pills all over the bathroom and in her hand.

I felt like shit. Like guilt has been eating away at my mind. Why didn't I immediately call 911 ? Why did I just stand there paralyzed staring at the dark gooey liquid warming up the cold tile floor?

I exhaled heavily, feeling the butterfly necklace she gave me move up and down as my lungs deflated. I wanted to get up and walk slowly down the hall , into the bathroom and pull out the bag I stole from Robin out onto my hand...but I can't here. Even if I wanted to risk bringing it through airport security, I ran out of it.

I shook my head lightly trying to think of something else to occupy my mind. Billie squeezed my hand as she adjusted her seat. This was the farthest I have ever been away from home, yet holding her hand cured my homesickness. Her head rested on my shoulder putting her legs up on her seat getting comfortable.

"Bil were going to land soon." I whispered in her ear and looked at some other students with sleeping masks on noticing pretty much the entire plane was passed out from the extremely long journey from Clearwater.

"Mhmm dont worry we can get pasta later." She whispers back half asleep, probably dreaming about all the food we will be stuffing ourselves with this week.

The thought of being hundreds of miles in the sky away from the ground made me nervous. I reminded myself of the jello method you're supposed to think about if you feel panicked in an airplane but honestly it wasn't helping, no matter what anyone says to reassure you...planes still go down deep diving into water or crashing into mountains...

All.

The.

Time.

My hand put my headphone back in my ear hearing some random bells and other plane noises in the background as I peaked out the open window. It was almost midnight in Italy so all you could see in the darkness were twinkling lights of cities that never slept, and the shadows of hills in the countryside that had already been fast asleep.

Everyone had already been up for twenty hours and I was more than ready to slam my head against the hotel pillow and pass out. I wished Billie could have been my roommate but at least this way I could keep an eye out on Ali.

Even right now sitting thousands of miles away from home and the ground, I still didn't understand why she would try something like that. Yes she wanted to "save" Bil and I but why would we need saving? The cops dont know what we did and the only reason they spoke to us again was because we were friends with Robin and I was connected to a "suicide" that left its mark on Clearwater.