THE FORGOTTEN MEMORIES [Jay Fanfic]

CHAPTER 19

A month had passed again and nothing changed. I'm still alone in our house. All alone. The boys keeps visiting me almost everyday because they kept checking on me, afraid that I mighy do something again.

I also keep receiving messages from Jay's parents asking how I am, They even keep sending food over in the house to make sure I eat well.

I was more than greatful that a lot of people is there to comfort me. I still don't have work and I decided to take a break for my mental health.

I kept visiting my parents grave so that I could lessen the pain and it helps me to be honest.

I never saw Jay again, I only hear news about him is through our friends and according to them Jay's memories got even better than the last time.

He now remembers them all and some other things. But still....I'm no one to him. He's still with her, he's still happy with her. While me? I'm all alone here waiting for him to come back.

Unti unti ko na ring natatanggap na baka hindi na niya ako maalala pa ulit. Pero hindi ibig sabihin na mawawala na ang pagmamahal na meron ako para sa kanya.

No one could ever replace him.

Nakaupo ako sa kama namin habang nakatitig sa daliri ko, caressing the ring he was about to give me the day of his accident.

It is so beautiful, looks expensive and has a diamond on it. I let out a small smile remembering all my memories with him. I even imagine if he didn't got into an accident maybe we'll get married soon.

Or maybe we're already married now and was focusing in building a family.

These past few days I've been thinking about this so much and I think it will be the least I can do for myself.

I took my phone out and texted our friends to come over, I wanted to tell them first. And I wanted to let them know right away.

This is a big decision for me to make but this would help me move on. This will be my treatment for myself.

My mental health got worsen than the last time, I kept overthinking things. I even tried to take my life again but then I think of all the people who love me. I promised them that I will never do it again so I was able to stop myself.

I waited for an hour before I heard a knock on the door. I opened it and saw them all together.

"Pasok na" I said at naupo kami lahat sa sala para makapagusap. They were all confuse dahil mukhang importante ang sasabihin ko.

"Ano ba yung sasabihin mo?" Sunoo asked.

"Bad news ba yan?" Niki added and I laughed at umiling.

"No, it's about me" Sambit ko at lahat sila natahimik at nakatingin lang sakin naghihintay na ituloy ko ang sasabihin.

"What about you?" Hee asked raising his brow.

"I decided to leave" Kita ko ang gulat sa mga mata nila at nagtinginan pa sila para makasigurong tama ang naririnig nila.

"Leaving? San ka pupunta?" Jake asked. I don't want to keep secrets from them but I really don't want to tell anyone where will I be going.

I want to be alone and have a peace of mind for myself.

"Yes, I'm leaving this week and I can't tell you where" I said na mas lalo nila ikinagulat.

"This week?! Why so soon?" Sunghoon asked.

"I've thought about this for a long time and I think it is the best way for me to be far away so I'd be able to forget" I said looking down. I don't really want to go away but everything in here is too much for me.