Hanggang saan ba ako dadalhin ng galit at paghihiganti? Hanggang saan ba ako dadalhin ng pagsisisi? I keep blaming myself to what happened to my family. Ang sabi nila ang pinaka masakit at mahirap na kapatawaran ay ang manggagaling sa sarili mo. Hanggang saan mo ba gusto mo ba masaktan? o maghihilom ka na lang sa paglipas ng panahon?
Some wounds may heal in time, but there are wounds that has been part of our life and the least thing we can do is to live on it.
"Ionna!" I heard a jolly voice calling my name.
Agad naman ako lumingon sa pinanggalingan ng boses at nakita ko ang kaibigan kong si Khem na naka-ngiti habang suot-suot ang kanyang toga.
Ilang taon na rin ang nakalipas, the scars of past is already forgotten. Hindi ko alam kung nagkataon lang ba na lumupa ang issue simula nang mag-kwento ako sa asawa ko o sadyang may connection siya para tigilan ang fake news. Ang importante ay masaya si Khem at naghihilom.
Hindi naman kasi madali ang paghihilom, hindi madali ang magpatawad lalo na kung umukit na ang sugat sa pagkatao mo. Sana 'wag tayo madaliin ng mundo sa pagpapatawad at paghihilom, sana maunawaan nila na may mga sugat na sadyang nangangailangan ng panahon at proseso para sa oras na magkasalubong kayo sa daan, buong puso ka na ngingiti at masasabi mo rin sa sarili mo na nagpatwad ka na.
"We're heading in law school after this!" masaya niyang salubong sa akin nang makalapit siya sa pwesto ko.
"Malayo na. Pero malayo pa,' I smiled gently knowing the fact how we endure our college life with each other. Akala ko noong una hindi na ako makakatagpo ng kaibigan pero dumating siya.
Its kinda funny how fate bound us. Ako? I never believe in love but it open unknowingly. I stop believing in friendship but it came unexpectedly.
I hope when happiness knocked on your door, don't hesitate to open it. Don't hallow yourself in the idea that you don't deserve every inch of happiness and love. We all deserve to be loved in any circumstances and stop gaslighting yourself.
"Apat na taon na lang sa law school, magiging abogado na tayo! Sana kahit anong mangyari hindi natin makalimutan na ipaglaban ang hustisya. Justice before love, justice before ourselves, and justice before money! Ionna, let's be a lawyer who fought for justice." she offer her hand and we hugged.
"Keighn, dito!" sigaw ng kaibigan ko sa paparating na kaibigan namin kasama ang asawa ko.
Nico smiled on us while looking the venue of our graduation day. Agad na pinulupot ni Khem ang braso niya kay Keighn na halata ang inis.
"Wife," a gentle voice hugged me from behind. Agad niya isiniksik ang mukha niya sa leeg ko habang marahan niyang hinahawakan ang wedding ring namin na sana kamay ko.
"Look how far you've come, I'm so proud of you, wife." he held my hand and planted a soft kiss in my forehead.
Siya ang nagturo sa akin kung paano lumaban at bumangon. And I want to make him more proud. That I deserve to be his wife and to be part of him.
"Kuya, Ionna, magsisimula na ang ceremony. Let's go inside." his voice is full of authority but has respect on it.
Akmang aalis na kami nang may isang matangkad na lalaki na lumapit sa amin. He look murderous and dangerous at the same time. Ang awra niya ay puno ng galit. His European look made him more appealing yet cold. He's wearing black suit like a mafia vibe.
"K-Kuya," rinig ko ang halo-halong emosyon sa boses nito. "W-What are you doing here?"
"My youngest brother is graduating, and I want to know why he chose to be a lawyer instead of running the family business," his cold voice make me shiver.
I can feel the anger in their conversation.
"Let him do what he want, bastard." his eyes become unemotionally, again.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero ayaw ko at natatakot ako sa tuwing nandidilim ang kanyang mata.
"I'm still your eldest brother, Nico. Have some respect if you don't want me to ruin everything you have," his cold eyes darted to me as he spoke.
"You're marrying the daughter of the well-known lawyer in county, do you want me to do something about it? Kuya, I'm no longer the kid who easily threatened, I am more capable to fight back." hindi ako mapakali habang nakikinig sa kanila, parang ibang tao ang nagsasalita, muntik ko na makalimutan na siya ang asawa ko.
Anger and annoyance evident in their eldest brother face.
"Sana hindi na lang kayo pumunta." Keighn's jaw aggressively moving as he walked away.
Agad naman siyang sinundan ni Khem na wala rin kaalam-alam sa mga nangyayari.
"You keep failing as eldest brother. I hope you never been part of us." my husband voice is sharp and in pain at the same time.
He grab my hand and we left his brother alone.
Nang makarating kami sa venue ng graduation namin ay nakita ko si Keighn na hindi parin mapinta ang mukha sa gilid. When the emcee announced the start of the program, we went to our perspective place.
"Kuya was always there for us when we were kids. Alam mo ba sa tuwing nagkakamali ang isa sa amin ni Kuya Nico, siya ang sumasalo ng parusa. He is willing to get hurt just to assure that were okay. Kami muna bago siya. And I miss that version of him. He changed a lot, Yuna. I miss my brother who used to be happy and caring to the world," may pait sa boses nito.
He can't stop people to change, we can't dictate them to stay from what they are. Minsan masasaktan tayo sa pagbabago pero ganun kasi ang buhay, people change and so we need to get used of it.
I always see the Roccero Siblings as powerful and strong. But I forgot that like my husband, they have their weaknesses and own struggles.
Nang nagsimula na ang ceremony ay agad na tinawag ang nasa honor roll.
"Roccero, Keighn Zauler, class valedictorian."
Every applause to his success. Sino ba kasi mag-aakala na ang tarantado kong kaklase ay magiging class valedictorian ng batch namin.
"Woahhh, future boyfriend ko 'yan!" walang hiyang sigaw ni Khem habang binabaybay ni Keighn ang stage.
Agad naman tumayo ang dalawa niyang kuya para samahan siya. Despite their eldest brother rough attitude, it can't deny how his eyes spark and proud of his youngest.
Dali-dali ko kinuha ang camera ko para kunan ang moment na ito. Halos mag-agawan pa ang dalawa sa kung sino magsasabit ng medalya sa bunso nila pero sa huli labag sa loob na ipana-ubaya ng asawa ko ang pagsabit sa nakakatanda nilang kapatid.
They look happy and playfully in the stage.
Nang makabalik si Keighn sa pwesto niya ay hindi parin maalis ang ngiti sa kanyang mga labi.
"Fuck, Yuni. I'm so happy! Ilang taon na rin nang huli ko maramdaman ang ganitong kasaya." he whispered while looking at his two brother who teasing each other.
"Roccero, Ioanna Papuran." nang tinawag na ang pangalan ko ay agad na ako nagtungo sa stage.
"Fuck, Roccero, you hear that? That's my wife!" puno ng pagayabang ani nito sa kanyang nakakatandang kapatid.
Nang inabot sa kanya ang medalya ko ay ginawaran niya muna ako ng halik sa aking noo.
"I will forever be proud of you, wife. I want to be more successful in the field of science so I can suit to be your husband. I love you, and I won't let you leave my side." he possessively incircled his hand to my wrist.
Before he put my medal a loud gun shot made the hall in chaos.
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I'm sorry for being inconsistent in updating. This past month is too heavy for me and I will write when I want to or when I feel like I need to write this feeling. Stay safe always and please take care of your mental health.
Ps. HI, Shahana if you read this I love you, proud of you always.
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