Love Letters

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~LETTER~ 

Dear Soulmate,

What I am going to tell you might sound weird, but... I am happy, very happy. As if the burden within me was lifted. He wasn't ignoring me and, for some weird reason, it made me dance in delight.

These feelings I had never discovered before, never. I want to deny it, but maybe I can't! These feelings are powerful, damn powerful. My heart takes a leap when those marvelous sets of black orbs stare at me as if I were the most beautiful creature he had ever glanced at. The way his lip form into a smile as he listens to my blabbers. Why does he love my blabbers so much? I never thought anyone will be interested in my views, in me. But he proves my theory wrong.

He makes me feel wanted, worthy, understood, and special! I have started having confidence in myself and it is all his doing... maybe... maybe I am falling for him.

And that realization is scary! I am getting dependent on him. My mood is affected by his small moves. I am getting attached to him. I can see the difference taking place within me. My heart dances in anticipation when I hear his approaching steps in the living area. At times I get disappointed in knowing that he departed for work before I woke up.

He is no longer ignoring me. We have talks like civil individuals. The thought of Suhana is somewhere lost and I feel guilty for it but that guilt is subsided due to the time I am offered to spend with him. When he is around mostly the staff is quiet, they are so conscious even to take a breath in front of him. I never understood the fear around him, I never found him scary...

It's just that I am living the best part of my life and I wish it never to end...

Your Shona...