Love Letters

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~LETTER~ 

Dear Soulmate,

For the first time, I felt that I was getting someone who didn't consider me insane. A friend that would stay with me for a few years, but maybe it isn't in my destiny. I am feeling miserable for the past few days. Even lost!

I have lost everyone that I considered my own. I lost the woman I believed was my mother, only to realize she was my guardian, who was supposed to look after me. And all the care she faked was for the day I would turn twenty-two and she will get hold of the property I own after my parents died in the accident.

The girl that was so different from me but whom I always loved was involved in the plan. Her heart was filled with hatred, she wanted me dead. She wasn't my sister. My entire life was a complete lie. It feels as if I am nothing as if no one will be bothered if I took a last breath today, at this minute.

Maybe, this is what it feels when one has no one to call their own. This life feels so worthless without someone who will love you. Maybe, deep down I always knew that they never loved me and that was the reason I kept searching for your presence. Keep believing in my heart that there was someone like my soulmate and that someone did love me.

It's weird but this experience made me realize the pain Karthik's brother is going through. Suhana shared some of his past. They were never close as brothers; they never even passed a smile at each other. They were separated from the moment their parents died.

I don't know whether should I thank God for it or be upset that why he kept us alive. Karthik is free from the unbearable pain but what about us? What about me and Ayaan? He seems so lost to even fake a smile. I wish I could help him in the process but Suhana can and maybe I can help her to get to him.

Your Shona...