Anastasia's POV
Hindi ko siya mawala sa isip ko at sa mga sinabi niya.
O MY GOSH! HE ACTUALLY CONFESSED TO ME!!
I rolled over to the side of the bed at ibinaon ang aking mukha at doon ako impit na tumili.
Kinabukasan mugto ang mga mata ko pagpasok sa school. Nalate kasi ako ng tulog kakaisip kay Xaven at yung nangyari kagabi. Kaya kinulang ako ng tulog.
Sakto pagpasok ko, pagdadating palang ni ma'am. Agad akong umupo sa upuan ko at tinignan si Xaven.
He seems like hindi napuyat ah.
My cheeks flushed nang nilingon niya ako at kinintadan. Landi.
The teacher started discussing about the new topic and my eyes are starting to drop down.
I tried stopping myself na hindi matulog kasi mamimiss ko yung discussion kaso trinaydor ako ng aking sariling mga mata.
Nagulat ako nung tinapik ako ni Mia na kaklase ko.
"Anastasia, may long quiz daw." bulong niya saakin na nagpagising sa kaluluwa ko.
"Tungkol saan?"
"Sa diniscuss natin." bigla akong namutla. Nakatulog ako during the discussion, ano isasagot ko?!
When the teacher started to say the questions I was panicking. I am not aware about the topic tas hindi pa ako nakinig during the discussion.
I am just hoping and praying na sana atleast hindi ako bumagsak.
After the quiz nagkaroon ng checking. My hands are trembling, since ma'am will announce kung sino yung nakahighest score.
"Allejo, Xaven Vior got perfect." anunsyo ni ng aming guro tungkol sa results sa naging long quiz namin, as expected.
My heart suddenly started beating rapidly. I was expecting na atleast nakasecond ako kay Xaven pero hindi nangyayari.
Hanggang sa napunta sa last 10 na students.
"Javez, Anastasia Delancy? ikaw yung pangsiyam sa sampung naka 30 out of 60 sa quiz." anunsyo ni ma'am na nagpatigil sa mundo ko.
I heard gasp and whispers. I looked at Xaven na nakatingin din saakin, he's looking at me with those apologizing eyes. Does he pity me?
Tears started to form around my eyes and pinipilit kong pigilan na pumatak ang mga ito.
How could I even fall asleep?! I always knew na kapag may bagong discussion may quiz na sasagutan. I am fully aware of that and yet trinaydor ko sarili ko.
Maybe dad was right all along. Xaven is my competitor and yet lapit ng lapit ako sa kanya.
No. I shouldn't blame Xaven for this. It was my fault at hindi ko dapat idrag si Xaven dito. I fall asleep and it was my fault.
All did Xaven do was to make my day brighter and I shouldn't think him as my competitor.
All eyes from everyone in the room was looking at me, even the teacher. Maybe they we're wondering how could the 'perfectly aced in every test and top 1 in class' Anastasia could fail? I just bowed my head to avoid their gazes.
I felt ashamed.
Honestly I am not afraid to fail at any test. What I am afraid of is the disappointment flashed in the eyes of the people around me, especially my family.
I am afraid that they will look at me differently because I can't keep up with their expectations that I am no longer useful if I didn't excel in academics. I am afraid that they will look at me, with disappointment.
After the teacher dismissed and left the room. I quickly managed to get out of the room. My eyes we're getting blurry as I managed to run as fast as I can papuntang CR.
Hinanap ko yung pinaka malayong CR sa campus. The CR where no one can hear my sobs and screams.
I was about to enter the CR when a hand stopped me. I turned around to see whoever it was but I can't see it clearly due to my tears.
"Anastasia." Xaven's deep voice lenggered into my ear. As I burst my tears infront of him.
"I failed the test, Xaven..." naiiyak na sabi ko sa harapan niya.
"Hey... it's okay you di-"
"Hindi! You don't understand! You don't understand how that score will affect me!! How will I just disappoint Dad! The disappointment in his eyes shown everytime I fail. It keeps on projecting in my head as if it was a fucking movie being shown ng paulit-ulit!" sigaw ko.
"No matter how hard I try hindi ko maabot ang supporta ni Dad. I don't care even if I did my best, it's because those weren't enough! I am not enough!" napahagulgol ako sa harap niya at napasalampak sa sahig.
"Such a disappointment "
Dad's voice echo on my head, as if those we're frogs croaking. Words that hit me on my soul, reminding me that I am a disappointment to everyone. Paulit ulit hanggang sa napasabunot ako sa aking buhok.
"I am... a failure." naiiyak na sabi ko.
He quickly hugged me by the time he heard my sobs getting louder. I was crying on his shoulders and he was tightly hugging me not minding his shirt na unti-unting nababasa ng aking mga luha.
He started to caressing my hair habang pinapatahan ako.
"It's okay... you tried your best and you did well," he keep on whispering that it was okay.
"You are more than a test score, Anastasia." he kept on reminding me.
My head was starting to ache and my visions was getting blurry until I lost my consciousness around his arms.
Nang magising ako napansin ko na nakahiga ako sa isang kama.
I rose from the bed and scanned the area. School Clinic.
Xaven was resting his head on my side while holding my hands. Agad siynag nag angat ng tingin ng makitang nagising na ako.
"Hey... okay ka lang? Masakit pa ba ulo mo?" he asked full of concern. Agad akong umiling sa kanya.
Lumamlam ang kanyang mga mata ng makitang unti-unti akong umiiyak.
He immediately hugged me while patting my back. Pinapatahan ako.
Pagkatapos kong umiyak pinunasan niya ang aking mga luha paalis sa aking mukha.
"Hey... it's okay to fail. Failures are normal." he said.
"Don't beat yourself up. Sometimes things don't go your way, but that doesn't mean you are a failure. Your value isn't based on your success or your failures. You are valuable and worthy because you're you. Your existence alone has meaning. Try to think that every step you take is still a step closer to your goal. Keep trying and working hard and you'll get there eventually. Every mistake made is an opportunity to learn and grow." he softly reminded me.
I just hugged him and he hugged me back while caressing my hair.
In his arms it felt comfortable. It felt like home.
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