Teenage Dirtbag

Ch 22: Playing Nice

Peyton pov:

I let myself back into Fallon's house, trying to sneak in after having snuck out. She startles me when the kitchen light turns on, coming out of it she had a cup of coffee in her hand.

"You coming back in?" She flicked the light off and moved towards the stairs.

"Yeah, I hung out with my friends. Sorry for the noise." I bluff, I was at Ella's I just didn't want her to know that. I think she'd stab me if I told her.

"Uh huh? You're a bad liar." Moving up the stairs she doesn't say another word to me.

Things have been kinda tense between us. I'd been staying over since the night she dragged me over. The weekend was mostly spent with me at my friends house practicing or working on the music project.

If I was over when she was there she'd ignore me or have me run lines with her for a different class. It was mostly civil with an occasional bickering between us. For the most part we were acting like real friends.

When the weekday came along she kept up with her "bullying" antics but they weren't as bad as previous. My guess was that's how she showed affection.

I did notice that she kept to her word, she wasn't talking with Derek even though he tried. She ended up dating Jake. He was pulled into the cruel cycle of arguing and making up with her. It was kinda impressive that he's lasted this long.

"Why are you up?" I followed after her, taking the steps two at a time.

"I'm watching a movie." She said off handedly. I was confused, it was nearing 2 am.

"By yourself?"

"Jakes over." Opening her bedroom door I saw the dude laying on her bed with the laptop. He didn't have a shirt on. She smirked as she entered the room, standing in the doorway.

"Have fun?"

"We will." She shuts the door in my face. Rolling my eyes I move to the guest room that I've been staying in.

Tossing some of my stuff aside I get on the bed and lay down, staring up at the ceiling. Boredom sunk in quickly. Grabbing my bag I pulled out some of the pain meds, I didn't really need them but they made me feel good.

My body and face only hurt when I touched the marks or bruises. Some had healed but there were still plenty littering me. Popping a couple pills I grab a joint and light it up, wanting to be out of my head.

I feel guilty and upset that I've cheating on Ella but I can't bring myself to tell her. How do I sneak out to sleep with her only to leave and feel upset a different girl doesn't want me.

Fallon and I agreed to be friends and it was fine but I still felt jealous and frustrated she wouldn't be with me. It was a selfish and self obsessed way to think and feel but it was the truth.

Makes me feel like like shit…

My body numbs out as my mind flies away, the high is great, the meds and the weed do its work perfectly. Being outside of my head felt great, I didn't worry about girl troubles, I didn't worry about my home life, I didn't even think.

I was numb and I loved it…

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