this is me trying: taylor swift + joe alwyn

thirteen

December 31st, 2022

We didn't really do a lot for the next few days. Joe took me to some of his favourite spots in London that I hadn't been before, and it was nice to be able to go places where no one was following our every move.

There were even a few moments on our little day trips where I really thought Joe would propose, but here we are on our last day in London before we fly out tomorrow, and he still hadn't popped the question. It's not that I wasn't happy being just his girlfriend rather then his fiancé or his wife, I just wished maybe some time soon he would ask. I mean it has been 7 years, what's stopping him at this point?

I sat at the piano, my thoughts beginning to spiral. I quickly stopped myself from going down that rabbit hole and settled on the fact that it just had never been the right time, and he was waiting for the perfect moment.

I had spent most of today sitting at the piano. People would occasionally come in and see what I was working on, but other then that it's just been me and this piano for the past 12 hours.

I was actually getting a lot done. I ended up getting a spark of inspiration, just like Joe said I would. Since that moment at 4am this morning when I woke up with lyrics in my mind, I haven't stopped writing.

"Hey babe, what are you working on?" Joe said as he poked his head into the room.

"A bunch of stuff. It's been non stop since this morning." I laughed a little as I stood up and wrapped my arms around Joe's neck.

"You're breathtaking, you know that?" Joe said before pressing a soft kiss onto my lips.

I looked down at my cat pyjamas that I'd been wearing all day, then back at Joe.

"If you think this is attractive you should see what I'm planning on wearing tonight." I smirked at him, knowing he definitely will like what I'm wearing later on. 

"Well... it's 4pm so you better start getting ready."

"I guess so." I smiled as I kissed Joe's cheek and walked past him.

Tonight we were going to a New Year's party that one of Joe's old school friends was having. I was a little nervous about that at first, but Joe assured me it was a very private event, and that there would be heaps of people and everyone would be drunk anyway, so people would barely notice me.

I got out my planned outfit for tonight, smiling as I thought about Joe's reaction. It was a very short dress, sparkly of course, and I actually thought I looked hot in it.

This was a rare occasion, me thinking I looked good in any way, so I knew this meant it must really be a good outfit choice.

I put on my dress and did my makeup, not too much but enough to compliment the outfit. I then started to curl small pieces of my hair to give it a natural wave look.

Right as I finished getting myself ready, Joe walked in. Perfect timing might I add.

"Holy fuck..." Joe's eyes widened as he got a good look at me.

"What is it?" I asked innocently as I stepped towards Joe.

"You make me so crazy Taylor..." Joe said, basically drooling.