It has been official that him and my sister have been dating for a month now. I'm crushed but it is what it is, Ithink within the first 2 weeks after the split my doctor put me on anti depressant meds i became quite and sad always crying never comes out of my room dosent eat dosent leave out lay in bed all day. Jillian my cat was all Ineeded. I spent all my time with him, and he showed me unconditional love. I realized that I wasn't alone and could find comfort in his presence. I kissed his head helay in my arms and cuddled with me i brushed my fingers through his fur i closed my eyes He purred and I felt content. For the first time there was a knock at the door i got up answering it with jillian by my feet it was sam hey viv he said hey i sighed you okay havent heard anything from you in a little bit i nodded im okay i guess i said he nodded my sister is getting married and she wanted me to invite you she said it might cheer you up he said and handed me an envelope i smiled thanks sam i said he smiled no problem hope to see you there he said i nodded he walked away i closed the door and placed the card on my nightstand i wanted to go but then got nervous I wasn't sure if I was ready to face the world again. I took a deep breath and decided it was time to gamble. i pulled out a dress from the closet and a pair of nude heels and went to bed. The next day I sat in bed until 4 pm. I jumped out of bed because we left at 5 pm. I got dressed quickly and hurried out of the house. I arrived at the venue just in time and felt regret as I stood at the entrance i slowly took a step i turned to just leave till i heard him dont go viv he said i turned around why i asked he smiled and stepped towards me cause i want you here he said i nodded and walked in found my chair and watched the ceremony when it ended kat huged me its good that you came im proud of you she said i smiled thanks kat i said and huged her im sorry about them tho she said i turned to see adruey and colby were sitting together and smiling at eachother i smiled as long as hes happy im happy i said she smiled i lied i hated that they were together. I took a deep breath and walked away, my heart heavy with regret. I knew I had to let them be happy, but it still hurt. I had to learn to accept it and move on. i said to myself but couldent we moved to the grand hall for diner and there would be a dance. And all the awsomestuff we ate dinner together i didnt touch my food viv are you going to eat kat asked oh im not hungry i replied she nodded colby glared at me knowing i looked away leaning on my hands. adurey kissed his cheek i love you she said he smiled i love you too he replied i pulled my chair out and stood up excuse me i mutterd walking away I walked out of the hall into the front hall watching the pouring rain outside i sat down putting my head in my hands crying into my hands isniffled and wiped my face so my mascara was not down my face i sniffled viv i heard my name i lifted my head to see colby i wiped my face and sniffled im sorry i said and got up fiixng myself its okay dont apoligise he said i nodded im sorry i -i need to just go i said stumbleing out the door into the rain viv! he yelled i stoped what colby what now? i asked viv just wait he asked im tired of waiting im done im hurtinging colby i said i know and im sorry he said your not sorry you knew how much that would hurt me and you did it in front of me i yelled just listen he asked i dont want to i wanna go home i said and wiped my soaking wet hair out of my face with my sister colby my own flesh and blood i yelled he looked down the only thing in my mind is why what did i do for this to happen why is he doing this to me was i not enough what could he want. I yelled and i cant stand you too together and i get that your happy and im sorry but colby im still in love with you ive tryed to move on but cant. I yelled i cant do this co- he stoped me by placeing his lips on mine i was shocked but then melted into him his hands cuped my face all i could hear is the rain my hands found his soaking wet hair I felt all my pain and anger wash away and all I could focus on was him. We stayed like that for what felt like an eternity before he pulled away, the rain still pouring down around us. He looked at me with love in his eyes and said, i still love you viv never stoped he said i smiled and im so sorry for not seeing that sooner not realizeing when my solmate in right here in my arms and im sorry for kissing her im sorry for makeing you go on meds just to feel somthing and im sorry i made you cut again god im such a dick he said i smiled im sorry viv im so sor- he said i shushed him shhh its okay i said sniffling he smiled i love you viv this moment tomorrow and forever he said i smiled i love you to i said and kissed him again we both pulled away smileing laughing cause we are soaked i kicked water at him he splashed it at me i yelped i kicked it at him we splashed back and forth till we orderd an uber and We arrived home, giggling and laughing half way up the staires we enterd my room and shut the door i kicked off my heels he sat on the bed i stood over him he pulled my hips down on him so i was strattleing him he kissed me it turned into a make out and we were undressing eachother he pulled away looking in my eyes are you sure he asked i nodded unbotening his white shirt he smiled and kissed down my body His lips were gentle against mine and our breathing was in sync. after We drifted off to sleep, still intertwined in each other's arms.
