Today is when my upcoming song drops it's about Colby so I'm planning to play it for him in my car the Jeep. He's coming down from his room I watched as he walked up to the car I smiled and unlocked the door letting him in he came into the car I smiled hey I said hello he said we talked for a bit you ready I. He shook his head, rubbed his hands together, and hit the record button. i chuckled I hit play as my soft piano played
My body is a graveyard. It carries my past wounds
My heart races with trauma. These slits on my wrists are getting deeper
When you are not around
Chorus:
Buried deep in my scars and past
I can no longer forget, the pain will always last
And my walls are all that I have, when your not around
Verse 2:
The darkness engulfs me, I'm sinking fast
My thoughts take me to a place, I can no longer last
Without you in my life, I'm so broken down
Chorus:
Buried deep in my scars and my past
I can no longer forget, the pain will always last
And my walls are all that I have, when your not around
Bridge:
I'm trying to move forward, but my past holds me back
I can't find a way out, I'm lost in the cracks
Chorus:
Buried deep in my scars and past
I can no longer forget, the pain will always last
And my walls are all that I have when you're not around
He listened to all of it I turned it down to see his face there was a tear down his cheek I frowned don't do that I said he smiled He shrugged and wiped away the tear. he sighed I smiled and looked down he grabbed my hand i looked towards him was that about me? He asked, his voice quivering I nodded he nodded he has no words neither did i honestly I'm moving out of the house I'm moving back to la while they are in Vegas I'm planning my tour I need to get away from here for a while. I need to find my own way. I'm ready for the next step. We decided to drive around for a bit; if you are wondering, he and I aren't dating. We are just friends. I'm not ready to seehim. as my boyfriend again. But it's going to be alright. I will take the time I need and figure out what I want. I'm okay. Even though I have feelings for him, I know that Ia need to figure out what I want for myself and find my own path. It's important for me to take the time I need to process my emotions and make sure I'm making the right decision. I'm confident I can do this and feel good about my choices. i didn't even realize I was zoned out till I felt a hand tap my shoulder. I looked up and saw colby there, looking at me with a concerned expression. He asked me if I was alright, and I nodded. yeah just my mind wondered what you were saying. i asked he smiled remember when we went star gazing? Hequestioned I smiled yeah I do I said he smiled feels like forever ago but it has almost been a year now. i smiled memory flash through my mind making me smile wide thats when i said i loved you i said he smiled yes it was he said i smiled we were so good i said and looked away from him we still could be he said i didnt answer just bowed my head He grabbed my hands, squeezing them gently. He looked into my eyes, and I felt a warmth spread throughout my body. He smiled and leaned in, our lips almost touching I pulled away we cant I said he looked at me confused I sighed and put my head in my hands you hurt me colby maybe its for the best that we are nothing more than friends I said He shook his head sadly and pulled away ill see you later he said and opened the door and hopped out I watched him walk away, my heart aching. I knew that I had made the right decision, even if it hurt.
