I woke up in Colby's arms and I looked up to see him staring down at me. I smiled he smiled back. He kissed me gently and I melted into his embrace when we pulled away he ran his finger tips along my wrist i looked up at him prove to me that I'mnot dreaming i asked he laughed He kissed me again and said 'You're not dreaming, I'm here and I'm not going anywhere'. He wrapped his arms around me. I smiled, feeling safe and content in his arms. I nestled in close, never wanting to leave. He held me tight.I just hoped he meant what he said last night. I looked up at him, searching his eyes. He pulled me even closer, whispering softly in my ear, "I love you". I smiled and studied his face looking to see if he didnt mean it. I could see a bit of regret in his eyes.I felt my heart flutter, afraid to believe what he said. I wanted to believe it, but I was scared it wasn't true. I just looked at him, hoping he could see the answer in my eyes.We stared at each other for a few moments, neither wanting to break the silence. Finally, he said, I need to film with Sam today he said and rolled over to check the time. I nodded, I need to get to the studio to finish my record. i said and got up with the sheet around me he gathered his clothing off the floor i put mine in the hamper andheaded to the bathroom to brush my teeth. Once i finished i walked out he was not seen i sighed I put on my shoes and grabbed my keys. I left the apartment without saying goodbye, knowing that we both had work to do. As I walked out, I couldn't help but feel a wave of sadness wash over me. I feel like the way he expressed"I love you" was as if hedidn't mean it. However, he did and its clear he wants the two of us, so he needs to figure his stuff out.I turned my head away from my thoughts and drove to the studio. After hours of recording, I was there to make the song abouthim yes its about colby i turned my notes into a song. As I wrote the lyrics, I cried. I wanted to make sure he knew how I felt about him and that I was willing to wait for him. With a heavy heart, I finished the song and put away my guitar. I took a deep breath and wiped away my tears. i drove home its about 1am i unlock the trap house door and open it kiwi came running to me i smiled hey girly i said and kneeled down to pet her i smiled and took my shoes off i walked up the stairs and went to my room i opened the door to see colby and audrey sitting on my bed i looked confused he looked mad and it honestly scared me whats going on i asked viv audrey said and twittled with somthing in her hand somthing metal i looked confused she held it up it was my blades those arnt mine i said quitly colby looked away viv they are audrey said i turned to her and gave her the shut up look im going to give you guys some space i looked away she left the room he stood up were he asked i shook my head no were where do you do it now? he asked firm, and I just looked away I didn't know how to answer, so I stayed silent. He seemed disappointed he grabed my wrists and lifted my sleves i got anoyed get off of me i shouted where viv he asked fine you wanna know where? i asked he nodded i un zipped my shirt and showed him my four arms and showed him my wrist that has scars all down my arm He let go of my wrists and stepped back. His face went pale as he stared at me. I quickly zipped my shirt back up I looked away, avoiding his gaze. He didn't say anything, and neither did I. I could feel his eyes still on me and I started to shake. I tried to keep my voice steady when I said, "Can we just forget what you saw?" no he said i just cant do it colby i said holding in tears He shook his head and said, "I'm sorry, I can't do that." im done there is nothing left i said he nodded i started to shake i let the tears come out he came closer to me and tryed to hug me i pushed him away he didnt care still wrapped his arms around me as i punched his chest and sobbed He only held me tighter, saying nothing. I eventually stopped fighting him, and let myself be comforted. he was traceing shapes on my hand His gentle touch had a calming effect on me, and I felt myself relaxing and letting go of the tension I had been holding in. I realized that by allowing myself to be comforted, I was able to accept his support and find solace in his embrace. he rubed my back i stared into space his hand cupped my face to look up at him His touch brought me back to the present moment i ment what i said last night he said. I nodded , and he kissed me softly. I felt a warmth spread through my body, and I closed my eyes and leaned into him. We stayed like that for a few moments, and then he hugged me tightly.
