Practices weren't really that important but I still hated to be behind Max. I don't know for how long I stayed with my mechanics but it was already late. I sat down on the floor, I was holding my phone in my hands. I really wanted to text Skye, I wanted to be with her, I really needed her right now, I always needed her if I was honest. "You okay mate?" Jon asked as he said down next to me. "Should I just give up on her?" I looked at him. "What does your heart tell you?" I shrugged my shoulders. "My heart and my brain are not really working together right now" he put his hand on my shoulder and looked at me. "Always follow your heart otherwise you're gonna regret it mate" he said as he got up and walked out of the garage. How was I supposed to listen to my hear when it was completely shattered?
I decided to go back to my room. My mechanics were all looking at me weird, they were probably waiting for me to go back so they could leave as well. I got up and waved at them, they worked so hard lately, they wanted me to win this championship. "Hi Lando are you going to your hotel?" Someone said as soon as I walked out of the garage. Did she wait for me to leave? "Uh yeah" I said quickly as I started to walk faster. I was too weak for this right now, I was not in the right headspace. "Are you okay? Is the car okay?" She started to walk as fast as I was. I nodded my head. "Yes definitely" I walked out of the paddock and to my car. I stopped in front of it and looked at her. "Why are you here Imani?" She definitely didn't expect that question. She didn't know how to answer that. "If you're here for me then please forget me. I am definitely not ready for anything right now, not even sex" I said and she nodded. "I just want to be your friend" she whispered. I felt bad, she looked genuine and I was just being rude. "Thanks Imani" I said as I hugged her. Maybe she wasn't that bad after all.
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I put my stuff down and let myself fall down on the bed. I had nothing to do, Luna was with Skye and Max probably was there too. I didn't had to guts to ask him if he was free, I wasn't ready for the answer at all. So I grabbed my phone and posted a picture. Quadrant was dropping new merch so maybe I had to give them a little attention too. It's not that I forgot about them, but lately I couldn't be bothered with filming stuff and pretend to be happy in front of the camera. People probably started to notice that I was very absent lately but I had to get myself together first.
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@LandoNorris: New Quadrant merch is dropping today!! WEYEY!
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@Imanii: Looking good (as always) @MaxFewtrell: It dropped yesterday but okay @user1: Already ordered mine! @user2: are u okay? @user3: i saw Skye's post, are u fine? @user4: nooo why did u guys break up?
My heart dropped a little when I read the comments. What did Skye post? I quickly typed her name and looked at her latest post. It was a white picture with black text where she told everyone we broke up, she claimed it was a mutual decision but that wasn't the truth at all. She knew I didn't want this and she didn't even talk to me about her post. I had no idea she was about to do this and of course Lexi and Max liked her post already. I read it a few times before smashing my phone against the wall. I couldn't believe she did that without even telling me, I didn't recognize her at all. Is that how she treated someone she claimed she loved for many years? It looked like she couldn't wait to get rid of me.
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After a horrible night I had to get ready for qualifying. I never wanted to beat Red Bull more than right now. I wanted to see Luna but I just couldn't deal with Skye, I was afraid that I would get mad at her and I didn't want that, not in front of Luna. I just waved at her from a distance.
As I walked through the paddock, I could see many eyes staring at me. I guess everyone saw Skye's post by now or heard about it atleast. I put my sunglasses on and walked passed everyone who asked me a question about her. Jon ran up to me from behind and put his hand on my back. "This is gonna be a horrible weekend but we will get through it okay?" he said softly so no one but me could hear it. I nodded as we both walked in the hospitality. I realized I didn't tell many people about our breakup, because as soon as I walked in, everyone turned around to look at me. I hated the look in their eyes. Some felt bad for me and others probably expected this.
I was grateful for these sunglasses on my face. Atleast they couldn't see my eyes because they would see that they were telling a different story than the fake smile on my face.
