Echoes Of Poetry

"Shadows of Self-Doubt: Seeking Inner Light"

In the depths of self-doubt, where shadows often creep,
I hear the whispers of my flaws, the wounds that cut so deep.
I know I bear the weight of being labeled "fat" and "ugly,"
But please, don't remind me, for it consumes me entirely.

I understand I'm not worthy of love, or so I've come to believe,
That trust is but a distant dream, beyond what I can achieve.
You don't have to remind me, as I'm already drowning in my pain,
Feeling useless, feeling dumb, my tears like an endless rain.

The notion that I'm no one's priority, it echoes in my mind,
A haunting truth that leaves me feeling so confined.
But even in the depths of despair, I play the role of a smile,
Masking the tears that engulf me, pretending all is worthwhile.

I carry the burden of disappointment, a heavy weight to bear,
To my lover, my family, to everyone who's ever cared.
You don't need to remind me, for I'm aware of my perceived flaws,
Feeling inadequate, incapable, imprisoned within my own cause.

Guidance becomes my crutch, for I fear to stumble on my own,
In this self-pitying cycle, where tears and darkness have grown.
Yet, I wear a façade of happiness, to shield the pain I hide,
Pretending I'm content, though internally I'm shattered inside.

I strive to make others happy, to please those around,
In the hope that their joy may silence the doubts that abound.
But amidst it all, I'm aware that I'm alone in this fight,
Hiding my anguish, bearing my struggles, consumed by the night.

Yet, within the depths of loneliness, a flame flickers bright,
A spark of resilience, a glimmer of inner light.
For even though I may hurt, emotionally, mentally, and more,
I'll keep striving, keep fighting, as I've done many times before.

I'll carry on, despite the weight that tugs at my heart,
Embracing the strength within me, refusing to fall apart.
Though I may feel alone, I'll find solace in my own embrace,
Embracing self-acceptance, discovering my inner grace.

So, please, don't remind me of the battles I face each day,
Instead, offer understanding, kindness along the way.
For in the depths of my struggle, I seek a glimmer of hope,
A reminder that, despite it all, I'm worthy of love and scope.

~~kereninkwell