Part 34

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I go back to the hospital today, because even though I have grown to hate this place, I need to talk to BASIL. 

He smiles when he sees me. 

"SUNNY! I've missed you." He says.

I smile back, and reply, "It's only been a day, but I've missed you too, BASIL."

"SUNNY... we might not see each other for a bit. My parents are trying to find a good..." Tears come to his eyes. "They want to put me in a fucking... asylum... I'm not insane, SUNNY, I promise I'm not insane. I tried to kill myself... but that, that was reasonable, I'm not delusional, SUNNY, I'm not."

I put my hand on his shoulder, snapping him out of his rambling.

"BASIL, I love you more than anything else and more than anybody could ever love you. I think this choice might be good for you. You're going to get better, okay? I want you to get better."

I barely believe the words as I say them. It's true. All I want is for BASIL to get better, but will that happen? He deserves to be mentally stable more than anyone else does. I'd do anything to make that happen, even if it meant not seeing him for a little bit.

"But... you just came back... and now I have to go... SUNNY... why does life suck so much?" He asks me. 

Its not a rhetorical question, I can tell that, his eyes are too wide for it to be rhetorical, he is on the brink of tears and madness, grasping for strings, needing to find a reason. I understand it. His insanity is reasonable, and maybe even slightly my fault. I don't understand how he loves me so much, it doesn't make sense, I've hurt and hurt and hurt and hurt him, but he still stays, his nature similar to a dog, loyal no matter what I do to him, constantly searching for any scrap of praise or comfort or love I can give him. 

I do not answer, I simply kiss him. I love him too much to let him worry, and this is the least I can do. 

"SUNNY... why are you going to tell them the truth?" BASIL asks.

I take a deep breath in, letting it out in a tired sigh. "No matter how much you try to escape reality, it'll always come back for you."

Something behind his eyes breaks.

(398 words)

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