My Everything

Chapter 5: Love is a Crazy and Wild Thing

! TRIGGER WARNING! This chapter will contain: Slight cursing and talk of injury!! Please, if you are uncomfortable with this stuff please do not read on! 

Eddie's POV:

We all stayed there just holding each other. Everyone was upset and crying. The only sound that filled the waiting room was everyone sniffling and trying to take deep breaths. I'm glad that I was able to get Carla to stay with Chris. I can't let him see me like this. All of a sudden there is someone clearing their throat getting all of our attention.

Dr. Elliot Allenson: Hello, I am Dr. Elliot Allenson. Are any of you family members of Buck?

Maddie: Yes, I am his sister. She immediately stands up and walks over to the doctor. Is Buck okay?

Dr. Elliot Allenson: Please come with me.

They both walk off into a more private area leaving everyone else behind. I can't take this much longer. I can't take not knowing if Buck is going to be okay. I need Buck to be okay. I don't know what I would do to myself if he was gone. Maddie walks back up, eyes red and puffy but she does have a small smile on her face.

Eddie: I quickly jump up from my seat and walk towards her. So, is Buck going to be okay? What did the doctor say? I could feel my heart racing from anticipation.

Maddie: She intakes a shaky breath. Buck is going to be okay, hopefully, he is stable as of right now. His injuries were very serious. He has 5 broken ribs, his left femur is fractured, he had to get staples in his head for the gash, and he had an internal brain bleed from the trauma. Her eyes tear up a bit. They put him medically induced to allow him to heal. He also has a concussion and possible memory loss. Shit, is she being for real?

Bobby: At least he is stable. We just keep hoping you guys. He will be okay; Buck is a fighter.

Eddie: Is he allowed visitors? I look at Maddie, giving her a prideful look.

Maddie: Of course. Follow me. She turns around and we all follow.

When we got into Buck's room the lights were dim and the only sound in the room was his heart monitor and the sound of a machine helping him breathe. Seeing him lying in that bed, in a coma, with all of those tubes and wires hooked up to him broke my heart. I hate seeing my Buck like this. My Buck?!? No, Eddie got it together, he isn't your Buck and never will be. I walk over the side of his bed and sit in the chair placed there.

I try to study his face, I'm not sure if I'm looking for something or just want to see his face. He looks peaceful, and his face is blank. Even with those tubes in his mouth he still looks amazing. We all decide to sit in the room and visit. I didn't really pay attention to what everyone was talking about, my focus was on Buck.

Maddie: Alright you guys all should probably get some rest. I'll stay here with Buck tonight. She gives a small smile.

Eddie: Maddie, you're pregnant, it won't be good for the baby. Plus, you need rest, probably more than any of us. You and Chim go home, I'll stay.

Maddie starts to open her mouth to protest with my saying, but I hold up my hand and stop her. I then give her yet another pleading look. Please let me do this Maddie. She nods, and we all say our goodbyes. Everyone leaves besides one person. Ravi stayed back and just gave me a look.

Eddie: Come on Ravi, go home, you look so tired.

Ravi: You two are close huh?

Eddie: Excuse me?

Ravi: You and Buck. You guys are always together. Inside and outside of working. I constantly see you two looking and glancing at one another. You two are really close. He gives me a sincere smile.

Eddie: Yeah, I let out a slight chuckle. He and I are pretty close. He hated me at first, but we learned to get along.

Ravi: Are sure there's nothing going on more than friendship? Because from what I've seen it looks like more. Is he serious? He gives me a straight face for a few seconds before bursting out into laughter. Thank god. Nah I'm pulling your feathers.

Eddie: I give him a smile and a small chuckle. You got me there for a second there.

Ravi: I should probably get going. I'll see you tomorrow, Eddie. I'll already let Cap know you won't be at work tomorrow.

We both give each other a hug before he walks out. I may not show it much, but he is a good kid. I really should get to know him more. Okay, back to Buck. I pulled the chair as close as I could to his bed. I get up and quickly close the door so it would be quieter. I walk up to him and just look down at his sleeping face. Fuck it, no one is here, and he won't know. I lean down to give a gentle kiss on his forehead. Did I really just do that? Eddie, how stupid could you be? I shake the thought from my head and sit back down in the chair, resting my head on Buck's bed. Before letting sleep take me over, I grab Buck's hand. Just this once.

Flash Back to after the Christmas special in season 2 (Season 2 Episode 10: Merry X-Mas):

I walk up to Cap's door. I need advice and he is the best person I know when it comes to this. I wait a few seconds before he opens the door for me and invites me in. We both sit down and sit in silence for a few seconds.

Bobby: Eddie, you want to explain why you came in here or you want me to figure that out for myself?

Eddie: I-I need some advice Cap. I don't know who else to talk to about this. I'm confused. I look down and start fidgeting with my hands.

Bobby: Alright, so what's been confusing you.

Eddie: It's about Buck, Bobby looks at me giving me a shock but also 'I knew it' look. I'm confused about him, about me, I guess just about everything.

Bobby: What about it is confusing?

Eddie: Every time I'm around him, I feel happy. He makes me really happy. More than just a friend would. Seeing him with Chris makes me happy. I always want to be around him. Everything he does makes me feel flustered? I ask that as more of a question. I'm not even sure.

Bobby: He lets a smile grow on his face. Sounds like you, my friend, are in love with Buck. In love?! No Buck is my friend. I can't be in love with him.

Eddie: W-what? In love? That doesn't make any sense.

Bobby: Love is a crazy and wild thing Eddie. It doesn't need a reason behind it. It just comes along. And by the way, I support you.

Eddie: Thank you Bobby.

Bobby: Of course. He pauses for a minute. So, you want to tell me when you started noticing these feelings?

Eddie: I smile a bit. Right before Christmas actually. When we took Chris to see Santa and the Elf came up to us to give it to him. Me and Chris walked away, I guess Buck thought we were out of hearing range. The elf said we had a cute kid together. He said thanks and was happy about it. That's when I realized I could spend my life with him. It also allows me to realize those feelings have been building up.

Bobby: He gives me a large smile. Eddie I'm glad you figured this out. It's really special what you two have. The bell begins to go off. Well looks like we shall finish this talk later.

End of Flashback

A/N: Hi, I am so sorry for this chapter being a little late. I was struggling with writer's block at the begging, which also explains why the begging probably sucks. I shall see you next chapter <3