My Everything

Chapter 15: The Kiss

Buck's POV:

It's been a few weeks since I had surgery on my leg. I don't remember much from it. I just remember Eddie acting a little off around me. I try to ignore it though. I have been attending physical therapy since I got out of surgery and it's going really well. I am finally back to being able to walk without pain and those stupid crutches. Eddie and Chris still force me to take it easy though. Today is my check up with my doctor to see if I have a clean bill of health. The only thing that has been bothering me recently though are these killer headaches I have been having. I am sure it's nothing though.

I was sitting on the couch on my phone when I felt a pair of eyes on me. I look up to see Eddie standing there watching me. I let out a small laugh, "Eddie it's not nice to lurk". He throws up his hands in surrender and takes a seat next to me.

Eddie: Sorry I was gonna say something then forgot.

Buck: Well then it mustn't have been important. Give him a smile and look into his eyes.

Eddie: I guess so.

We continue to look each other in the eyes. The air in the room was getting thick with anticipation. Eddie's eyes are so beautiful in the dimly lit room, and I can't help but admire them. Before it there is this source pulling me closer to Eddie. It was too late to stop it. Our lips connected. HOLY SHIT! BUCK DID YOU JUST KISS EDDIE? YOU'VE DONE IT NOW. I sit there for a few, and Eddie doesn't react. Fuck I just messed everything. I quickly break the kiss, get up and grab my jeep keys. I quickly walk out of the door not listening to Eddie calling out for me.

Eddie's POV:

I sit there staring into Buck's amazing eyes. I could feel the atmosphere around us getting thicker. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest like a drum. Thump thump, the sound of each beat getting louder and louder. Before I knew it Buck had connected our lips pulling me into a kiss. My heart skips a beat and I think I might have taken too long to react though. Buck got up and rushed out into his jeep and drove off. I tried to call his name and chase after him, but he just ignored me and left. I was stuck standing there in the front yard by myself.

My breathing starts to hitch, and my vision gets blurry. What have you done Eddie? You've done this. This is your fault. Now buck is gone. I could feel my legs starting to give out underneath me. I just fell to the ground, my knees hitting the ground. I'm starting to not be able to breathe at all. What is going on with me?

Buck's POV:

I just keep driving. I'm not sure where to go now. Eddie hates me, so I can't go back there. I decide to drive to Bobby's house. I hope one of them is home. I really shouldn't be driving; I have tears constantly rolling down my face. How could I fucking do this. I'm so sorry Eddie.

I pull into the driveway at Bobby's house and send him a text. Within seconds he is rushing out the door up to my jeep. He had a worried look plastered all over his face. He opens up the door and sees the tears falling down my face.

Bobby: What happened to you son?

Buck: I fucked up real bad Bobby.

Bobby: What happened? He started to panic and started checking me for injuries.

Buck: I'm not hurt Bobby. I-I kissed Eddie... Bobby immediately looked at me and his face filled with shock.

Bobby: And you're crying why??

Buck: H-he froze up. I upset him, Bobby. I look up at him, tears still falling down my face. I upset him. He is never going to want to see me again.

Bobby: Now Buck, I know that isn't true. Eddie can't live without you.

Buck: But you didn't see it happen.

Bobby: It'll be alright Buck; you just need to talk to him. Anyway, don't you have a health appointment today?

Buck: OH SHIT.

Bobby: I'll drive, you are in no condition to.

I let Bobby drive me to my appointment and he waited in the waiting room while I went in to have my health checked on? Ig that is what is technically happening. They took my back to get an MRI of my brain, and X-Ray of my leg and just some overall health stuff. We walk back out into the waiting room to meet Bobby so we can hear the news.

Bobby: He stands up and shakes the nurse's hand. Alright give it to us straight. Is Buck able to work again?

Buck: Yeah, what he said.

Nurse. Ayden Allenson: Well, we have some good and bad news. The bad news is that buck has some swelling in his brain for the brain bleed and head trauma he got. The good news is we can easily take care of that with some medications. Other than that, he has a clean bill of health.

Buck: So, I can go back to work? I could feel my excitement growing.

Nurse. Ayden Allenson: Yes Mr. Buckley you can go back to work.

Buck: I clap my hands together. YES!!

Bobby takes me back to his place to have dinner with him, Athena and the kids to celebrate. I open the door and see Athena running up, her arms outstretched to me. She embraces me in a hug, and I gladly accept the offer, along with returning her hug.

Athena: There's my baby boy. I heard you have a clean bill of health now.

Buck: I give her a big smile. Yep! Bobby says my first shift back is tomorrow.

May and Harry overheard and started cheering. Athena walked with me over the table filling me in on what is for dinner. She made a breakfast meal, with the main course being waffles to celebrate. I laugh to myself a little, classic Athena. I stayed for about an hour just hanging out and talking with them all before I realized it was getting late. We all said our goodbyes and I got into my jeep and. Grabbed my phone. I haven't even looked at my phone since the whole thing with Eddie. I turn it one to see I have about 15 missed calls and 20+ messages from Eddie. The most recent message reading "Buck please respond. I need you to say something. I'm getting worried." He probably just wants to yell at me. I marked all of the messages as read and hopped on the firefam group text to tell everyone the good news.

Once that was done, I finally drove home. The drive was long and annoying. The reality hit me as I pulled into my normal parking spot. I'll have to work with Eddie tomorrow. I can't face him yet, I'm too afraid. Really buck, how could you be afraid? Just man up already! There was that voice again. I push it out of my mind and go to walk into my building. It felt strange being back here, I got so used to living with Eddie I guess I just forgot how to live on my own.

As I was walking up to my apartment, I had this feeling I just couldn't shake. I had the feeling as though I was being followed. Just as I got to my door, I heard voices behind me. I turn around to see someone walking around the corner the other way. Creepy. I unlock my door quickly and get inside, immediately locking the door behind me. I usually love coming home but now it feels lonely and sad. I decided I am going to go straight to bed.

Something felt off about my apartment though. I couldn't put my finger on it though. Oh well, you're just being paranoid, Buck. I go up to my bed and flop down. Oh yeah, I need to change. I get up and go to my dresser. I went into one of my drawers and noticed it looked like someone went through it. I always keep my clothes folded though. I shake my head; I think I might be going crazy. I get dressed in something more comfortable to sleep in and get comfy in bed. With in minutes, I could feel sleep take me over.