My Everything

Chapter 12: Hidden Away

Buck's POV:

I wake up to the sun shining through the window. The alarm clock read 12 in the afternoon. Did I really sleep in that late? Damn it. Even sleeping late, I am still so tired. What even happened last night? I can't seem to remember much. The last thing I remember is Eddie coming home after my nightmare and telling me he was here. I was so caught up in thought I didn't even realize where I was.

I could feel a hand entangled into my hair. I look up to see Eddie fast asleep with a smile on his face. I then only now realize that I was laying on his chest holding him close. My face immediately heats up, and I am sure my face is as red as a tomato. This is nice though, I feel happy. I decided to sit here and stay in the same position. Eddie is surprisingly comfortable, but I'm not complaining.

After a little while of laying here in Eddie, I can start to feel my hair being slightly played. Mmm I like this. I decide to close my eyes and continue to act like I'm asleep. That plan failed me as a voice spoke up.

Eddie: Good morning sleeping Beauty. I do hope you realize I know you are in fact awake.

Buck: I open my eyes and look up at him. Good morning Eddie. Damn I thought I was acting really well.

Eddie: Well your acting sucks. He laughs, and it leaves a deep rumble that grows through his chest. Shit there I go blushing again.

Buck: How dare you. Such a betrayal! I use this "betrayal" as a way to sit up and hide my face from him.

Eddie: We sit in silence for a few seconds before he speaks again. So I hate to ask, but, do you wanna talk about last night? What happened to you?

Buck: I let out a huge sigh and contemplated for a second. Last night, I uh... don't remember much. The nightmare, I pause, it was the attack. I-I have to keep reliving those moments, every single part of it. From the pain, how scared I was, when I thought, I was going to die alone, to hearing you scream but unable to do anything.

Eddie: His face drops and a small amount and tears start to fill his eyes. Yo-you heard me screaming. I give him a nod. But you said you didn't remember anything, plus you were unconscious when I found you.

Buck: I still heard it Eddie. The nightmare is constantly replaying but last night. It was worse, they didn't only just attack me but they got you and- and Christopher. It felt so real. I thought I lost you both.

Eddie: Hey, hey I know it feels real but Christopher and I are still here. He pulls me into a hug. It'll be alright.

I start crying and Eddie just pulls me closer and I let it all out. We were there for about 30 minutes. I calmed down a little while ago but Eddie still held me. My stomach started to growl and Eddie laughed. "It looks like someone is getting hungry." Eddie gets up and pulls out his phone.

Buck: Uh Eddie, What are you doing?

Eddie: Ordering us some pizza. He smiles.

Buck: YES!

Eddie helps me out into the living room and I sit down. Eddie goes and grabs us each a beer. Even if it is only 1 in the afternoon, hell I need this. We both sat down and started watching some tv show. I don't really know what it was about or even what show it was. I was too busy looking at Eddie. Just taking in the sight before me. That stunt he did last night to help calm me down made me fall 10 times more in love with him, which I didn't think was possible. I really do care about Eddie and our friendship. I want to keep what we have so these feelings I have for him will stay to myself, hidden away.

There was a knock at the door which caught both of our attention. Eddie Opened to the delivery guy holding a box of pizza. Eddie smiled, paid him and took our pizzas. Eddie came back over with two plates now in hand and sat down, this time a little closer to me. I could feel my heart racing for some reason. The air in the room was thick. I shook it off and put on a marvel movie on the T.V. Good few hours pass and Carla walks in with Christopher and greets us.

Carla doesn't stay for long as she has plans with her husband and leaves. Christopher joins us on the couch and we all start to play video games. We chose to play one of Chris' favorites. We played for about 2 hours before Christopher fell asleep. Eddie takes him to his room and I choose to stay on the couch. I grab the remote and open up to Hulu to try and find something to watch. I ended up choosing this Doctor show which was called "Grey's Anatomy". Eddie comes back in and joins me getting excited over what I was watching. Apparently he loved this show, which put a smile to my face seeing how happy he was watching it. Eddie sits decently close to me, with barley half an inch of space in between us.

After a few minutes of getting into the show I feel something on my leg. I look over to see Eddie having his hand resting my thigh. My face immediately heats up and my heart starts pounding. I look up at Eddie's face and he smiles and winks at me. I smile back at him and quickly turn my face to hide the extreme redness I'm sure my face had. Why was he doing this? Calm down Buck, he probably is just trying to calm you down or something. There is no way in hell Eddie would ever like you like that. Eddie is straight, get your head back in the game Buck.

We ended up finishing the first season of the show we were watching before I started getting tired. At this point Eddie had his arm around my shoulder. I decide to lean my head onto his shoulder. I snuggle up next to him, making myself comfy. Eddie makes me feel safe. I would give anything to make us happen but I know that just isn't possible. So why not take advantage of that right now? Get what little feelings I can out, without letting Eddie know how I truly feel. We both ended up cuddling on the couch, him playing with my hair slightly as I rested my head on him. I smile as sleep takes me away. I wish I could do this every night. It is going to start getting really hard to keep these feelings hidden away, I can feel it.