Broken Vessel (AMOG Series #1)

Simula

Simula

How tall a mountain do we have to conquer for love? I guess, like Mount Everest. 

I found love in the midst of my streaming pain. I lost love out of ignorance. There's no prior mistake that happens, but it just fleets away and leaves me hanging.

Is there one way to fix a broken heart?

My mother and I share the same fate, but I changed the whole story with deeper words that were written by the broken girl.

The world didn't repeat history itself... I did.

"Bee, why are you like this? Your emotion is unacceptable anymore!" My mom outburst anger at me.

My heart has been so broken since the day they decided to separate from my father when I was still young. Their fight has become my nightmare. 

Tumingin ako kay Mommy na may pagkadismaya sa aking mukha. How can she put the blame on me when she's the one who made a mistake?! She's the one who is unacceptable!

"You made a big mistake, and yet you blame it on me, mommy?" My voice sounds betrayed. I couldn't believe her.

Na pahawak siya sa kaniyang bewang. She looked away and sighed many times, dismayado na tumingin ulit sa akin.

She pointed at me angrily this time. I can see rage in her eyes, boiling.

"Those are my decisions, Bee! I love him! more than anything else, so I will definitely defend myself for this! Who are you to question me when I know what I am doing? I am older than you, young lady. You must have forgotten about that!" sigaw niya.

Tumayo ako, hinarap ang aking ina. I'm still in tears. I looked at her before with admiration and with class. But I never knew that she would do this kind of thing! Well, I know she's old enough to think about what's right and wrong. This is so wrong that even a young girl could've had an idea of the wrong act! Maybe she thought that I was too young not to know the right thing to do. I am the sort of kid who only knows to play!

Well, I'm not!

"You are a mistress! You are kabet, mommy! Don't you feel disgusted about that? People calling you mistress?"

Isang malakas na sampal ang iginawad sa akin ni Mommy. The sounds and the slap share the same pain; it's hurting. Napahawak ako sa aking pisngi, habang dahan-dahan na lumingon kay Mommy. I saw tears in her eyes, full of rage, while looking at me. She weakly pointed at me.

"Don't you disrespect me like that, Bethany! I have raised you for my whole life! I give my life to you in this world! I give everything to you!" She shouted at me.

“The moment you accepted him to enter our house, you've already disrespected me, mommy.” I burst it out with a cold stare, with tears slowly falling down.

She looks shocked at my statement. I stand in front of her as firmly as I do. I need to make her realize that she may think it's right, but in the eyes of people, including me, it's very wrong.

"Kahit kailangan hindi ako nagreklamo sa mga pangangailangan mo! I give everything to you! At ito lang ang isusukli mo sa akin? I am not a mistress because in the first place he's mine, Bethany! Albert has been mine since I was young! Yes, inaamin kong we were done a long time ago, but we only give space for each other! Now that we realize a lot of things we wanted to make it right, ginawa ko lang ang tama para sa iyo! This is all for you!"

Napapikit ako sa sinabi niya. The heck was that all for me? At anong space? Bulag ba si mommy? O sadyang na lason na siya ng pag-ibig na sinabi niya? I don't get it!