Broken Vessel (AMOG Series #1)

Kabanata 14

Kabanata 14

Voice

I spent my entire Christmas with my father. I couldn't even feel so happy spending Christmas. Kahit kausap ko naman si Obed, it feels so sad and lonely. Mas gusto kong kasama ko si Mommy. Though, even if I really hate my father, my little me is still craving his affection and attention. Even though I don't like spending time with him, I still feel happy and excited, but I get disappointed because he didn't actually spend time with me. He spent the entire vacation at work. 

So to correct the first sentence, I spent Christmas at my father's house alone. 

After, I ended up happy when I came home with my mother. Kaso nga lang nang hinatid ako ni Daddy sa bahay. Nadatnan ko si Mommy na biglang kinakabahan habang naka tayo sa pintuan. She is wearing her night dress, and her hair is a little bit messy. I smiled widely, and I ran faster towards my mother. I hugged her; she smelled like a guy's perfume.

“Nagmamakaawa sa akin na bumalik na dito…” si Daddy.

Tumingin ako sa kaniya habang nakayakap kay Mommy. Mommy only nodded.

“Thank you for taking her home safe,” Mommy says.

“Thank you for giving me a chance to spend time with her.”

Umirap ako doon. Spend time with your work, you mean!

Hindi naman nagtagal at umalis na si Daddy dahil may gagawin pa raw siya. Pumasok kami sa loob. I went straight to my room. Nagpaalam din sa akin si Mommy na magbibihis muna raw siya at pagkatapos lulutuan niya ako ng breakfast. 

Kakapasok ko lang sa kwarto ko nang tumunog ang aking phone. Tinignan ko iyon. It's obed. May sinend siya sa aking picture. Nandoon si Mashlee na nakaakbay ang balikat ni Josie. Sa gilid naman nila ang tatlo, Dan, Ramel, and Gerald, may kaakbay na babae si Gerald. She is not familiar to me. Dumapo ang tingin ko sa lalaking katabi ni Mashlee. He smiled, but it was not evident. He looks very different, naging and blooming si Amare.

Obed Orcariza: Bonding kami after Christmas. Sayang wala ka.

Nasabihan nga ako nila na mag bobonding daw after Christmas. Pero pinili kung hindi sumama. 

Bethany Savier: Okay, ingat kayo diyan ha!

I smiled as I exited our conversation. Lagi niya na akong inaupdate sa mga ginagawa niya. Hays, parang kami na kahit hindi pa.

I opened my Instagram to check on some of my friends. Nagulat ako sa daming message ni Amare sa akin. I don't know when was the last time we talked. 

@amareacosta: Hi, do you have time? We can study the Bible through video call; how about that?

@amareacosta: Are you mad at me? You are ignoring me. 

@amareacosta: Sabi ni Mashlee kayo na ni Obed? Is that true? Tumanggi kasi si Obed sa akin.

Then his last message was for Christmas.

@amareacosta: Merry Christmas, Adri. I miss you.

Bigla akong na guilty sa ginawa ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Ayaw kong mag tampo ulit si Obed sa akin. Ayaw kong mag selos na naman siya. Alam kong wala naman kaming relasyon, pero gusto ko siya at gusto niya ako. 

@fucklifefuckbeth: Hi Amare. I'm so sorry for the late reply. Hindi ako galit sayo, oy. Ahmm, kakauwi ko lang sa bahay. Enjoy ka sa bonding ninyo! I miss you too!

But he is my friend. Kaibigan ko lang si Amare. Dapat hindi ko siya iniiwasan.

Agad agad ang reply ni Amare.