Love Without Love

twenty two →

Jaebum and I had a great time. It was close to something like the time of our lives. We drove for a long time, getting out of the city and to the country. We took pictures, many pictures he directed me through. I found it comforting, that I could pose however I liked and he could make art out of it. Anywhere we wanted a picture, he would take it. Today was like I was growing further. It made me believe I was beautiful, and all the pictures he took and showed me were stunning. He certainly had an eye for photography, and he told me he'd print them so I could always have a copy. Jaebum was sort of outstanding. How I remembered him was someone who wasn't afraid of taking risks, someone who enjoyed sticking out of the crowd. Even now he was still warm, even if he only showed a spark of his old cheeky humour. When we laughed together it was like everything fell back into place, and when he smiled at me I smiled back. We were like that, always like each other. In our eyes either of us could do no wrong, he could do no wrong.

When he dropped me off at home, that's when things got a little bit strange. I got out of his car, smiling as I peeked into the window to wave at him. He playfully stuck his tongue out at me, waiting until I was a safe distance away before he started his car. I watched quietly from my front door step as he drove away from my neighborhood. It made feel different, watching someone I loved dearly as a friend leave like we were children. My heart beat quickly in my chest, and I turned around, getting scared by the sound of my name.

"Yugyeom?" I gasped out, letting out a sigh of relief as I turned to look at my boyfriend. He smiled shortly at me, running his fingers through his hair. I could tell he was tired, and he looked like he had been doing homework, as he always was. Though neither of us moved from our spots, just warmly looked at one another.

"Who was that?" He asked simply, tilting his head to the side. I always thought he was cute when he did that, his hair falling gently into his eyes. Then I moved, walking over to him and gently pushing his hair back. Judging by the way his smile grew, I knew he liked it, so I pressed a kiss to his forehead.

"Jaebum-oppa." My reply was simple, and when he frowned, I wasn't surprised. Of course he wasn't too happy about me hanging out with another man, but it should be fine. Because we trust each other, right?

"Jaebum... How'd things go?" His voice was a bit low for my liking, and I frowned back at him.

Did Jaebum do something wrong I didn't know about? Though my expression softened into a pout, he reached over and poked my cheeks, causing me to brightly smile.

"It was fun, it's always fun. We have lots to talk about, I mean three years is alot." My voice was obvious, though it sounded like a child who had just went to a theme park. As if I was thrilled to have been with him.

"That's good. Did you talk about me?" Yugyeom leaned in for a moment placing a kiss onto my lips quickly before pulling away, I watched him look at me for a while. He was waiting for an answer, and I was wondering why.

Why did he ask if we spoke about him? Was he anxious? My eyes searched in his, but all I saw were pools of curiosity. Was it a crime to not talk about him? Was it a crime to talk? So I nodded my head hesitantly, even though it was brief, I did talk about my boyfriend. Jaebum asked how he was doing, so I gave a response, that's it.

"Nothing weird happened right?"

Now he was starting to freak me out, so I showed it. Taking a step back, I gave him a look. He wasn't telling me something, and I wanted to know what it was fast. He was beginning to make me nervous.

"Define weird." My voice was hushed, as I took a hold of his hand, giving it a soft squeeze when he found his words. I had no idea what this situation was, and I had a feeling now he was hiding something.

"Like, something, lies, relationship stuff."

"Woah, woah. Jaebum-oppa wouldn't lie to me, and you wouldn't lie to me. I wouldn't suddenly cling onto Oppa just because he was nice, because I'm in love with you Yugyeom. Stop worrying."

He seemed to calm down at this, letting out a short sigh as he held my hand gently in his. Yugyeom looked so perfect when at peace, his eyes settled into a tired state, and his lips parted. He himself just looked dreamy when it happened, and he nodded gently, his hair falling around his eyes simply. If there's one thing I missed, it was being able to admire his beauty from this close up. I reached my free hand up, tucking a piece of his hair behind his ear and teasingly smiling.

"Y'know, you're the guy. You should be fixing my hair and thinking I'm pretty. Not the other way around." I joked, placing a soft kiss on his cheek. Yugyeom chuckled in reply, reaching forward and flicking some of my hair out of the way of my eyes and smiling brightly.

"But you're already beautiful, I don't need to think it because it's a fact." He cooed, giving me a look. That look, with his eyebrows raised, and his lips curled into a semi smirk. Sometimes he was just too great. I flushed deeply, shaking my head as I took a few steps forward. Burying myself into his chest, I pouted playfully and giggled.

"You're so weirdly romantic."

"You're so weirdly affected, darling~"

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a/n : author nim is brain fart.

my back is killing me and I'm the maknae omg.

let me just chill for a bit.

I planned out the next bit of drama

Just a few more chapters.

Then we'll see !!