ONLY YOU, Sierra (ON-GOING)

CHAPTER 34

A few days later, my brother and I became better, our relationship became better because we were able to talk in depth, I learned more about the experiences of kuya kit without me by his side, only kuya kenzie was by his side all the time when he was having a hard time... I should have been there, I should have been the one with him during those days but because I was careless and spiteful... I hurt one of the person I love the most. I should be the one who strengthens him, I should be the one who gives him strength, and I should be the one who comforts him but what did I do... I just let him go.

I became blind because of what nadia was feeling to the point that I only understood nadia's side, I didn't even understand kuya kit's reason, I immediately got angry with him because I didn't want to see Nadia hurt because I knew what she had experienced but I didn't even think about kuya kit's feelings, I didn't even ask if he was going to have problems because I only knew that he could take care of himself because he was strong when he was facing us but I didn't know that he was also struggling.

He's happy when we're in front of each other but when he's alone... there, he pours out all the pain he feels, then he just hid from us the threat that lieun made to him, I didn't even manage to ask kuya kit if he had a problem or something what he feels.

Now I've learned that we also need to ask the feelings of those we meet, maybe later they think about suicide or they have a problem that they can't say that they need someone to comfort with them.

Ilang araw na ring 'di umuuwi si kiel dito at 'di man lang ako nirereplyan kahit seen. Ano bang nangyari sakanya, natatakot na tuloy ako dahil sa 'di niya pagpaparamdam.

5 araw nang hindi nagpaparamdam si kiel kaya nakakapagtaka lang.

"Sierra, kumain kana doon." Kuya kit said.

"Sige, kuya." I said.

Pumunta na ako sa lamesa para kumain ng hapunan, pagkatapos ko kumain nag-hugas na rin ako ng pinggan baka magalit sa'kin si kuya kenzie pag 'di ko hinugasan yung mga pinggan.

Umakyat na ako sa kwarto ko para mag-cellphone, maaga pa naman kaya 'di pa ako matutulog. When I receive a message from kiel, I immediately open the message because of excitement I feel.

Baby ko❤️🤭🌹🥵:

Can we meet? Sa park malapit sa mall.

Me:

Yeah, sure. I'll be there, baby. 😘

OMG baka isusurprise niya ako kasi malapit na monthsary namin, kaya siguro siya 'di nagpaparamdam kasi busy siya para sa monthsary namin.

Naligo ako ulit at nag bihis lang ako ng pants at sweater dahil malamig na sa labas.

Kinuha ko ang dadalhin kong bag na maliit at bumaba na para pumunta 'kay kiel.

"Kuya, alis lang po ako babalik lang din po ako." I was smiling widely because I was excited to see kiel.

"Saan ang punta?" Kuya kit asked.

"Sa park po malapit sa mall, magkikita kami ni kiel." I said.

"Okay, take care." Kuya kenzie said.

Lumabas na ako ng bahay at pumunta sa garahe para magmaneho papunta sa park na sinasabi ni kiel na malapit sa mall. After some minutes nakarating na rin ako sa park na sinasabi niya, wala halos na tao parang kami lang ang nandito kaya naman madali nahanap ng mga mata ko si kiel na naka-upo sa isang bench at nakatingala, watching the stars.

I walk towards him. "Baby, I miss you very much." I said.

He stood up. "I want to say something." He said coldly.