your blueberry boy ・❥・ hyunlix

douze

[felix pov]

the next day, i hadn't eaten anything. i just didn't feel like i needed to.

the time was now 21:11, and i was starting to feel tired. hyunjin sat on the end of my bed, scrolling on his phone.

i already skipped dinner because i had lost my appetite, which made the nurse worried.

as well as that, i was experiencing a really painful headache, i felt as if i was going to pass out any minute now.

i had figured that the lack of water i'd drank today may have been part of the problem, so i decided that i needed to re-hydrate myself.

i slowly moved my feet out of the covers and placed them on the floor, causing hyunjin to turn his head towards me, wondering what i was doing.

i slowly stood up, trying to balance on my feet, but i just couldn't.

i was struggling to stand up straight.

the nurse stared at me while i stumbled towards the bathroom, holding on to anything that i could.

"felix..." the ferret stood up, carefully holding  my hand in order to help me walk.

as much as i liked hyunjin's care, i didn't want to let the sickness inside of me win.

"i'm fine hyunjin, i can walk." i smiled faintly at the concerned blueberry head as he slowly took his hand away from mine, watching as i continued my journey to the bathroom.

once i had finally reached my destination, i practically fell into the sink, holding myself up with just my arms.

what was happening to me?

i couldn't even walk, is this really how weak i was?

this wave of illness was so sudden it made me feel defeated, but i didn't want to let that happen, so i grabbed my cup, filled it up with water, drank it, placed it back down, then stumbled back to my room with devotion.

as i fell back into my bed, i pulled the blanket over me, hyunjin standing by the side of my bed.

the nurse noticed that i was still struggling to walk, even after having some water.

"...did you hurt your legs or something?" he asked.

i cleared my throat, "no, i don't know what that was about, i think i'm just so weak i can't even hold my own weight." i laughed it off to lighten the situation, but it only made me feel more uneasy.

ever since i had coughed up that piece of blood from me and hyunjin's all-nighter, my physical health was getting worse and worse.

the ferret just looked at me and smiled, "..okay, well that means you should be having some food, you don't have any energy inside of you but you need it." he frowned, taking a snack out of his pocket and tossing it onto my lap.

"but..."

"...but what?"

"i'm just... not very hungry..."

hyunjin squinted, looking directly at me, "you haven't eaten a single thing today."

"i know..." i responded

"so, you're going to eat, whether you like it or not." he said with a strict tone.

"hyunjin-" "you don't have a choice." the elder cut me off, he sounded dead serious.

the way his voice immediately went from caring to demanding was really attractive.

i felt butterflies escape my stomach.

i had never seen hyunjin so serious.

"whatever." i crossed my arms refusing to eat, which sparked something in the elder.

all of a sudden, he picked up the snack, pealed off the wrapper, and climbed on top of me.

and that's when my heart began to race.

he grabbed my mouth and forced it open, i felt so submissive in this state that i just let him do it.

he got even closer.

me on the other hand, i was fighting my demons.

you may think, what demons?

well, those demons were my temptations.

you may also think, what temptations do you have, felix?

my temptations? oh.

well, only that...

...i was violently battling the temptation to just slam my lips onto the nurse's.

and that was the first time i'd ever actually thought of doing that to anyone.

"hyunjin what are you doing-" i was cut off when the blueberry head shoved the snack into my jaw, causing me to choke.

i would've fought back if i wasn't so weak, so i just chewed the food in defeat.

he climbed off of me and stretched his arms, "sorry about that... but next time i tell you to eat, just do it. you know i only want what's best for your health..." even he was surprised at what he did.

i was so shocked at the fact that hyunjin had just climbed on top of me and forced food into my mouth, that i just said nothing in reply.

the scene was replaying in my head constantly.

and i think it was in his head also.

we both glared away from each other as an awkward silence filled the air.

i froze, but then i panicked.

this is my NURSE.

i can't be thinking of him like this.

what is wrong with me?