your blueberry boy ・❥・ hyunlix

quatorze

[felix pov]

yesterday night, chris had left for the airport, leaving me and the ferret alone in my room again.

chris didn't tell us when he'd be back, but i was hoping it would be soon.

i sat up in my bed, wide awake. beside me, hyunjin was fast asleep on the floor, spread out on his mattress.

i couldn't sleep due to a throbbing headache, it was the worst one i had felt yet.

the nurse's phone was on my bedside table, so i used it to check the time.

29th december, 2:29am.

it had been exactly 24 days since hyunjin became my nurse. even if it wasn't that long, me and hyunjin were basically inseparable.

while thinking about the past, i put my fingers through my hair. i hadn't washed it in a while, so it was greasy. that made me feel unclean, so regardless of the time, i thought that having a shower was the best option.

i moved my legs over the blanket and placed them carefully on the floor, my limbs were feeling sore as i slowly stood up.

i felt a strong wave of vertigo surround my body as my vision blurred a bit.

i didn't bother sitting back down as i was already up.

but i should've.

*THUD*

the last thing i saw was the door of the bathroom before i collapsed onto the floor.

i was conscious, but just too weak to catch myself from falling straight onto my face.

the blueberry head beside my bed flew awake from the sudden noise, looking around to see what had happened, "felix?-" he muttered.

he stood up from his mattress and walked around the bed to the sight of me groaning on the floor.

"FELIX!" he bent down onto his knees and placed his hand behind my head, the other hand on my left hip as he helped me sit up.

"are you okay??? what happened???" hyunjin moved a strand of hair out of my eyes as he looked at me.

"i- uh... i don't know what that was..." i muttered, placing a hand on my forehead as the pain went down a little bit.

i was shaking, and hyunjin could tell.

i moved my position slightly so that i was now kneeling, trying to stand up again.

"hey- you can't stand up... you're too weak!" hyunjin tugged at my arm.

"i-i'm fine, i just need to take a shower..." i responded, giving the nurse a weak smile.

he raised his eyebrow in confusion, "how are you going to shower yourself if you can barely even move?"

the nurse was right, i didn't have the strength to wash myself.

and that made me feel like rubbish, i was so unwell that i couldn't even do basic tasks.

it made me realise, this wasn't just a sickness, it was a part of the disease.

i shrugged as the nurse frowned.

"...guess i won't shower then... i'll just go back to sleep." i muttered.

but before i could begin crawling back to my bed, the elder lightly grabbed me.

i turned my head towards him.

"hyunjin... i seriously can't-" "wait." the nurse interrupted.

we just stared at each other for a moment.

"this may sound weird but," the blueberry head started.

"i could shower you myself if you'd like..."

i just looked at hyunjin with confusion, but then giggled, "you're a real funny guy, you know that?"

i started trying to crawl away again, however hyunjin's grip on my arm tightened, holding me back.

"i'm not joking, felix." he spoke up.

i looked at him in shock, wondering if i was dreaming.

he was being serious about literally showering me?

no way.

i felt a small blush tint my cheeks.

"i've showered people before, it's not meant to be anything weird i promise." the nurse added.

i hesitated for a moment.

if it were any other nurse, i'd be fine with them seeing me without any clothes.

but i didn't want hyunjin to see me naked.

i don't know why, but it felt different. i was more self-conscious about what hyunjin thought of me, and there was another issue too.

if hyunjin were to touch my body like that, i don't think i would be able to fight my temptations.

after about a minute of silence, i finally responded to the ferret's request nervously,

with a slow nod.

after a few minutes, hyunjin had placed a stool in the shower where i could sit while he washed me.

i had asked if it was alright for me to wear shorts, as i was too shy to just fully strip. he said it was fine.

i sat down on the stool with my shirt off and a pair of shorts that were pretty high up my thighs.

hyunjin was wearing a white t-shirt with black basketball shorts.

the nurse stood there for a moment, i thought he was looking at my body, and it turns out he was.

but not for the reason i wanted him to.

"you're a lot thinner than when i saw you shirtless before..." he said with an anxious tone.

"yeah, i guess..." i replied.

hyunjin just let out a "hm" sound before he turned on the shower, putting his hand below it to check if it was the right temperature.

"hot or cold?" he asked.

"in the middle please, but more leaning towards hot." i replied.

the blueberry head smiled, "alrighty then."

he placed the shower head over my hair, the water travelling down my face and neck. the water dripped down my shoulders and chest, making it's way towards my shorts which were now soaked.

the elder looked as if he were in a trance, as he watched me become wet (NOT LIKE THAT!).

he then stood behind me and took the shampoo bottle, squirting a pile into his hand.

i was tensed up as he began rubbing it into my hair.

"hey... relax..." hyunjin spoke, "don't be so tense, i'll make you feel good~" he teased.

i ignored his jokey comment as he began to massage my hair, which felt REALLY nice.

"is that okay...?" the nurse whispered in my ear, causing shivers to travel down spine.

"...yeah... it's just right..." i muttered, enjoying the way he touched my scalp.

he smiled softly, rinsing out the shampoo from my blonde hair.

he then opened the conditioner bottle and put another pile in his hand.

he dragged his hands through the roots of my hair as he whistled a stray kids song.

i felt myself smile as i recognised the tune.

he scrunched my hair, then took his hands away, not rinsing the substance off just yet.

the blueberry head walked around to face me, then bent down slightly.

"we're gonna leave that in for about 5 minutes.
in the meantime, do you want me to wash your body?..." he asked politely.

i paused, but was in too much of a trance from hyunjin's scalp massage to refuse.

"...yes please..." i replied.