"I'm not surprised anymore. I somehow knew that you guys will go there too". She said as she put the last dish on the table.
"What should I do?". I continue eating.
"Do you still have feelings towards him?". I stop.
"Hmm?". She asked again.
"I-I don't know. I made a promise to myself b-but everything I see him, It's complicated". I put down my chopstick.
"I love how he always gives me an update what's happening in his life. The way he takes a good care of me, it never change. He is still the same guy that makes me happy...".
"Then, that's the answer". Imo smile mischievously.
I unconsciously started to smile when I realized what I just said. I continue eating as I shook my head.
After we ate dinner, Imo and I continue watching the show until it ended and then catch up a little about our recent happenings in life because we rarely see and talk to each other now. I go to my room to rest because I need to get up early tomorrow.
I was scrolling through my phone when I received a message.
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I smiled. Not gonna lie, I love it every time he's around. Thinking about the days, weeks, months, and hopefully years with him, it feels like i'm floating. It likes i'm on the clouds, it feels light and everything.
I'm sure, but there's still a part of me that I want to stop.
I sent him a good night too and set aside my phone. I'm tired but not yet sleepy, so I get my notebook and write a lyrics. Just random thoughts, whatever I can put down.
The next day, it's just another practice day. Nothing new, it still the same routine the following days. We attended award shows, performed on stage, got to collaborate with other girl groups, and making christmas contents.
Our last schedule for this christmas season is the SBS Gayo Daejeon 2022.
Then, Christmas comes. We still performed. I always comes across to the boys, it still the same. I told Jay that he can't tell it to anyone, even the boys. I don't want them to give meaning to every actions we make.
"Have you tell them?". Sakura Unnie whispered.
"Not yet". I replied and exhale. I'm planning to tell it to the other members, I'm nervous.
We are having christmas eve party. We didn't cook obviously, we just got home from Gayo Daejeon so we don't have time to cook. We just decorate our living room a little and set up the foods.
"Okay! All set, let's eat!". Chaewon Unnie said as she sit down.
We started eating even in this hour because we don't have to worry about getting puffy face because we it's our free day tomorrow.
